they wont stop

[Ashleigh]

i dont know if this is the right place so im sorry if its not.
for the past 7 years i have suffered with depression and i have self harmed for the past 5 years. ive always managed to control it but lately its been hard to control. ive been getting really strong images in my head of blood and of cutting myself and ive had these voices screaming at me telling me to cut my arms and to push deeper and i am so scared because theyve been telling me to do worse things like jump in front of cars and taking overdoses. i feel like im falling apart and i keep lashing out at people and hurting them and the voices wont stop. im seeing a doctor about my self harm on a weekly basis but im scared to tell them about them. ive never told anyone about them. i dont know what to do i cant keep living like this. i feel like my head is about to explode

[batwomr.smithshane]

Itll be fine. It seems you have a mental problem. Not to be rude just to inform you. If you would like to talk abt it vm me ill friend you.

[batwomr.smithshane]

i dont know if this is the right place so im sorry if its not.
for the past 7 years i have suffered with depression and i have self harmed for the past 5 years. ive always managed to control it but lately its been hard to control. ive been getting really strong images in my head of blood and of cutting myself and ive had these voices screaming at me telling me to cut my arms and to push deeper and i am so scared because theyve been telling me to do worse things like jump in front of cars and taking overdoses. i feel like im falling apart and i keep lashing out at people and hurting them and the voices wont stop. im seeing a doctor about my self harm on a weekly basis but im scared to tell them about them. ive never told anyone about them. i dont know what to do i cant keep living like this. i feel like my head is about to explode
Im here for u

[Ashleigh]

i just want them to stop they wont leave me alone. i used to only get them occasionally but now theyre always with me telling me that i dont deserve to be around people and that everyone would be better off if i were dead and telling me to do things and i cant cope with it

[Surreal]

Do you ever have any visual hallucinations? Not the ones in your head, but where, for instance, you're looking at them and they change shape / size / color / etc? What about smells that no one else notices even if you point it out?

I really suggest that you talk to your doctor about these voices. Although I'm not a psychologist, I've done a LOT of reading and research and projects on psychological and neurological disorders. This sounds a lot like schizophrenia. I am IN NO WAY implying that you might have it or do have it! I'm NOT licensed, so don't let this bother or scare you! It could also be a severe chemical imbalance and not even something permanent like Schizophrenia, and you can get medication for it and they will go away.

PLEASE talk to you doctor before something happens. I am begging you! I guarantee you that by holding this in, you are risking your well being and not only your safety, but your life!

Please let me know what you decide to do or if you need help finding a way to come across this with your therapist.

If you have any suicidal thoughts like this again, please check out the hotline numbers, and they will help you through this.
Try reading this post: http://www.virtualteen.org/topics/teens/disorders/schizo/

I hope this helps you,
Amy

[Ashleigh]

Do you ever have any visual hallucinations? Not the ones in your head, but where, for instance, you're looking at them and they change shape / size / color / etc? What about smells that no one else notices even if you point it out?

I really suggest that you talk to your doctor about these voices. Although I'm not a psychologist, I've done a LOT of reading and research and projects on psychological and neurological disorders. This sounds a lot like schizophrenia. I am IN NO WAY implying that you might have it or do have it! I'm NOT licensed, so don't let this bother or scare you! It could also be a severe chemical imbalance and not even something permanent like Schizophrenia, and you can get medication for it and they will go away.

PLEASE talk to you doctor before something happens. I am begging you! I guarantee you that by holding this in, you are risking your well being and not only your safety, but your life!

Please let me know what you decide to do or if you need help finding a way to come across this with your therapist.

If you have any suicidal thoughts like this again, please check out the hotline numbers, and they will help you through this.
Try reading this post: http://www.virtualteen.org/topics/teens/disorders/schizo/

I hope this helps you,
Amy

hi there. sometimes when i look at my arms i see some of my scars opening and bleeding but i think its just my imagination trying to trick my brain into thinking ive done it more than hallucinations. if i go a long time without hurting myself my wrists look more swollen to me like theres too much blood but other people say they look normal. i also get an itchy burning feeling if i go too long without doing it.
i have booked an appointment with my doctor on 8th august so i will talk to them about it then
thank you