Lost and Alone

[Extreme586]

I honestly don't know what I'm doing in life anymore. I feel so lost and just plain dead inside. I'm so awkward I make people look away just when I pass them in the hallways. I have no friends and have alienated everyone I once knew. I have zero hope for my love life, as I am gay and don't think any of the people I like like me back.

I wake up every day and sit on a computer game and play it all day. I'm good at it, it's the only thing I am good at and makes me feel somewhat ok. When I get off of it thought my real life hits me like a truck and I just feel so hopeless.

I was thinking about going to see a doctor but I doubt some pill will fix me. What should I do?

[Fanta_Lover44]

I feel the same, everything you said matchs me, i found a friend, it was kind of easy actaully........ We suggested meeting up as a joke and we meet up. We're all glad we are friends. I feel the same and i keep losing everything i have, or will ever get. I want out.......

[DanteZombie]

I honestly feel the same way. I came up with a solution, but I don't know if I have it right though. I've kinda locked myself up in my room. I mostly spend time on the computer and develop friendships online (met them in person once, now just talk online so they won't have to see me real face). I play games and watch shows all day. Once I've developed a friendship enough, I go out with them and I'm shocked to see how accepting they are of me.

My approach isn't "normal" or "socially healthy," but it is what works for me, and it is what makes me happy! So all I have to say to them is, "FREAK YOU!"

[Jevon]

You should try to get out there and talk to people and be social...just say hi or somthing

[LunarScorpio]

If you like computer games, you will find friends. How many people play games all day long, alot. Start chatting about the game you like, go from there

[Jessiibear]

Same. You just bum around and have absolutely no clue what your purpose in life is. You feel like a waste of space, like a mistake. As others have said, you're not alone. If you ever need to talk just to talk (about anything under the sun--from food to clothes to dogs to suicide to love; ANYTHING) I'm here for you. There's so many places to go for support. Talk to someone you trust (a family member, perhaps?) about how you're feeling. If that's weird ('cause I know it is for me) why not look at alternatives? There's nothing wrong with building relationships online. Anti-depressants could help. So can making a plan or having a hobby. Passing the time until something good happens. That's what I do. Look for a job, maybe. Focus on your studies. Don't worry about the gay thing, there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. You're not a freak and you're not weird. You'll find him. Try talking to a counselor. Call a helpline, if you need. Anything that works for you.

I hate to say this ('cause I often disagree) but it will get better. Stay strong, Austin. You're not alone in your misery, even if it feels like it. I'm here. There are people here you can talk to. People who understand. Think happy thoughts.

[Discomposure]

Sounds to me like although you can't help feeling the way you do, you're also not helping yourself.
Asking people what to do is a start though. You could maybe do some research into other activities that you may be interested in, give them a go; you never really know until you've tried something.
Exercise is really good for making you feel better in yourself, it kills time and releases endorphins and maybe just maybe you might meet someone whilst doing so!
As for having no hope for your love life because you are gay... this is the silliest thing i've heard! There is always hope dont forget that. I'm sure you'll meet someone gay, straight, bisexual whatever you are! You need to put yourself out there to meet somebody though you can't expect someone to find you in a room on a video game.
Sounds like you don't realise what you deserve, everybody deserves to be happy you need to make yourself want to do things in order to be happy.
You could see your GP for some medication which may help you get the courage and the want to go out and do things and meet people.
You should know though, it's not just medication. It's not a quick fix, it will be hard and you will have to make the effort too, the medication will just aid you in doing so.
Good luck, I hope you do find some other things that you can do to make you feel happier because I'm sure you have a hell of a lot of talents, you've just never felt good enough to try things!

[TransformR]

I feel like im approaching that tipping point to alienating my current friends, just by trying to keep them as friends. I'd play computer games, which im not bad at either, if my parents thought I deserved my xbox or computer back after bad grades, even though its summer.