DIEing on the inside

[boyman25]

I've been incredibly lonely this summer. I'm normally very lonely because i have friends who i see every once in a while but i dont really hang out with them often or anything and i just get lonely because of that. Lately i've been experiencing that and worse. All i want is for people to understands me, but it seems that no one does, and idk if anyone ever will. I feel worthless and dead. Normally i cry myself to sleep once or twice a month, sometimes more. I haven't cried since may, and i feel numb and insid and just completely broken on the inside. No one ever checks to see how i'm doing or how i feel and it hurts so bad. I feel like i'm shriveling up inside and i'm scared because i like emotions but they aren't coming anymore. I've even been watching sad videos and stuff but nothing can turn my emotions on. I'm lost, and the worst part is i'm not like an outcast at school or work or anything, i'm normal, i lead a bunch of clubs, i'm not scared of public speaking, but nobody wants to be with me. I currently like this girl but there's so many problems and impossibilities that i know i'ts never going to happen. I see her at student council meeting over the summer, and she's gorgeous, like i fell in love with her eyes, and she's nice, and smart. But at the same time i'm going to be a senior and sh'es going to be a sophomore so i don't think that will work sadly. On top of that i'm sure she never even gives me a thought, because no one does. And not to sound rude but i'm not fat or ugly. i don't know what to do, i tried to sleep tonight but i'm so messed up i can't. If anyone has any advice or words of comfort, pleas, i can't live like this for too much longer because if i can't feel idk what's going to happen to me.

[boyman25]

on top of this i see everything as a petty waste of time. Also i'm 18 and never kissed a girl or anything, and my 14 yearold bro has a girlfriend, so i think i have a slight inferiority complex.

[LouBerry]

Be happy. We know what it's like to be lonely. Find some friends that are real friends, that all those fake-ass people that don't matter. Just live your life. I mean, we're Seniors this year! We're almost done. (: That's a reason to celebrate right there. Make the most of this last year. And if you're feeling lonely, shoot me a message, okay?

[Castle of Glass]

Exactly what LouBerry says. I am pretty much the same as you. I have "friends" from my wrestling team and other things but all of those people have know each other since they where toddlers. I have maybe one real friend here, but it isn't a friend i can trust with my inner thoughts. I am not a senior, only a sophomore, but i know where your coming from. Even though i live by the beach, i have only gone there maybe three times. no more.

message me if you ever want to talk with someone who is in the same shoes as you

[Offmynoodle]

Hi, Boyman. Wow, that sounds really bad. Sometimes I feel like no one understands me either because I have strange interests and don't fit in. Whenever I feel depressed, I put my mind on something else. I work out at the gym a lot; you can't really think sad thoughts when you're concentrating on the treadmill. A lot of times I just cry, and I keep thinking the same things over and over. Try to avoid circular thinking. Different people have different ways of showing they care. While it might not seem that way to you, they almost definitely do care about you. (And the only reason I say almost is because I don't know them.) I do Student Council too, by the way. I'm Latrissa. If you need any help, send me a message of any sort. Good luck to you, Boyman.

[Offmynoodle]

P.S. If it gets really bad, you should probably seek professional help such as a councelor or psychologist.

[boyman25]

Thanks guys, I was just really upset i finally broke down last night and cried for an hour then couldn't fall asleep for three more but know i think i may be back to normal until school starts hopefully. I'm still picking up speed a little after that crash but i think that was my worst incident ever. Thanks for the support.

[Steve Jobs]

Cheer up buddy, you'll be fine!

Not so long ago I've been through just about everything you mentioned in there. Even now though, it's hard to get myself to feel any emotions. I get neglected, used and taken advantage of pretty often, and I don't think I'm really that weird or outcast either. Keep your head afloat and ride out the storm.. someone's gonna notice you soon :)

And if they don't, fuck this world, space travel will be invented by then.

[Fanta_Lover44]

Hey cheer up,

I can honestly say I've been in your shoes, I had to find new friends and we both don't want to lose each other, I would maybe ask to hang out more or try and find new friends, I understand its hard to meet new people...

Cheer up ;)