Depression is so bad

[dam1116]

Hello everyone, I've been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and have been on abilify for the past month and a week. I feel like complete shit, eat a lot, gained 8 pounds, have genital anaesthesia from the meds possibly, and i've been rediculously tired. I have lost sensation throughout my body as well. It's been pretty difficult living my life right now. I can't concentrate on anything, and I feel like times going so slow. I have to work right now to save money to go back to school august 27th and I really hope i'm feeling my best by then or idk what i'm going to do. I was completely fine until one day I triggered this familial mental illness that my moms side has suffered from for decades. Idk what to do. I feel lost in life right now just barely getting through the days. I need a different med obviously bc i'm suffering from major major depression right now. I need some advice from anyone who has experienced this and got through it positively.

Thank you

[Conqueror of Hearts]

Same as Natalie.
You definitely need different med so really tell your.doctor everything you wrote here. I really hope you'll get better.
-xx

[Jessiibear]

Hello everyone, I've been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and have been on abilify for the past month and a week. I feel like complete shit, eat a lot, gained 8 pounds, have genital anaesthesia from the meds possibly, and i've been rediculously tired. I have lost sensation throughout my body as well. It's been pretty difficult living my life right now. I can't concentrate on anything, and I feel like times going so slow. I have to work right now to save money to go back to school august 27th and I really hope i'm feeling my best by then or idk what i'm going to do. I was completely fine until one day I triggered this familial mental illness that my moms side has suffered from for decades. Idk what to do. I feel lost in life right now just barely getting through the days. I need a different med obviously bc i'm suffering from major major depression right now. I need some advice from anyone who has experienced this and got through it positively.

Thank you

I don't know much about bi-polar disorder but I do--in a general sense--know what all that's like...it's absolute hell. The numbness. The hopelessness. The feeling of being wasted space and drifting through a pointless life. I get it to a major extent, trust me.

I'm not sure how abilify works, exactly, but what I can suggest is you wait a little longer. Talk to your doctor about how you're feeling and see what they say. But when I went to my doctor with concerns about the blocks I was still feeling after having been taking my meds for a short period of time, he told me to wait it out. He said that I have to help it work and give it some time. At this point I'm not too sure if that was valid ('cause they're still not really working), but definitely check with your doctor!

I'm not as bad I used to be, though. I wouldn't even be on here if I was. I'd probably have run away or killed myself by now... I know this may not always help or seem like the way you want to go, but try to look at things positively. I'm sure people love you. I'm sure you're a wonderful person, inside and out. You're just a little clouded and shrouded at the moment. :( And I get that. Just try taking it one step at a time, hun. This pain will not last forever, I promise. Talk to your doctor, talk to someone you trust. Vent as much as possible. Find a hobby to pass the time. Seek out more, perhaps alternate, means of support. You are not alone. Remember that.

Sorry I couldn't be of much assistance here, if I wasn't. But my shoulder and ear are always available. Always.