joshual3
July 6th, 2013, 12:42 AM
I am a 20 year old gay guy and I have never been in a relationship... and I honestly hate being single. It really hasn't bothered me until recently, though. I go out on dates, but nothing ever works out. And again, it hasn't bothered me too much. Simply because I know I am young and have all the time in the world to find someone. The thing is, I am perfectly fine during the day. I work, hang out with friends, and keep busy. Then bedtime comes. That is when it hits. I just want someone to cuddle up in bed with every night. I just want someone to hold or better yet, someone to hold me. It gets to me because that is all I want... along with all the other things that come with a relationship of course.
The bad thing is, I tend to avoid going to sleep at a decent hour most nights because I don't like being reminded that I don't have someone to cuddle up with. And the nights when I do try to go to sleep early, I lay in bed for quite a while because not having someone there gets to me.
I just don't understand why it gets to me THAT bad. Is that normal? I don't even know what to do about it.
The bad thing is, I tend to avoid going to sleep at a decent hour most nights because I don't like being reminded that I don't have someone to cuddle up with. And the nights when I do try to go to sleep early, I lay in bed for quite a while because not having someone there gets to me.
I just don't understand why it gets to me THAT bad. Is that normal? I don't even know what to do about it.