Numbness

[Conqueror of Hearts]

So in past 10-12 months I don't feel anything. Love, anger, happiness....nothing. I have been in this state for a long time now but in those last months it became more severe than ever...Sometimes it is a good thing but lately I yearn to feel, therefore I started to cut again alot, but about 2 weeks ago I told myself I won't cut for 10 days and I didn't and today is 13.day without SH but now I want to do it again just to feel something.
I achived something I was dreaming about for a long time and I thought I would be happy about it but when I did I was completely emotionless. I just wondered if anyone is in the same or similar position?
And if anybody has any advice on how to feel again please tell me.

[MrMundane]

I know what you mean, the only advise I would give is try to remember what made you feel before or try to recall sadness before looking for other emotions, it was the easiest to find for me. Drinking might have something to do with it too.

[RockObsessed]

I was once in your position...kinda. The only emotion I felt was anger. Seething anger. I know that this probably sounds stupid, but one thing that really helped me was actually video games. It was the one time where I could escape the world and be reborn. I felt in control and it was liberating. I also turned to writing and sketching. I just wrote down everything I was thinking at the moment and sometimes even turned them into stories. As for the sketching, I just drew whatever came into mind. Sometimes it would be something creative, sometimes it was just a bunch of scribbles. I kept everything in a folder and even now I would occasionally look through it.

I would also recommend going out and doing something. Whether it be going to the park, watching a movie, or just window shopping. You may feel unmotivated, but kinda force yourself. Eventually something will catch your interest. My only other advice would be to change your environment. If your bedroom is bland, add a few things. You could even paint your walls a different color. Talk to people, resist the urge to cut. I know I'm just a little 15 year old but I really hope this helps and best wishes.

[Altiier]

I was once in your position...kinda. The only emotion I felt was anger. Seething anger. I know that this probably sounds stupid, but one thing that really helped me was actually video games. It was the one time where I could escape the world and be reborn. I felt in control and it was liberating. I also turned to writing and sketching. I just wrote down everything I was thinking at the moment and sometimes even turned them into stories. As for the sketching, I just drew whatever came into mind. Sometimes it would be something creative, sometimes it was just a bunch of scribbles. I kept everything in a folder and even now I would occasionally look through it.

I would also recommend going out and doing something. Whether it be going to the park, watching a movie, or just window shopping. You may feel unmotivated, but kinda force yourself. Eventually something will catch your interest. My only other advice would be to change your environment. If your bedroom is bland, add a few things. You could even paint your walls a different color. Talk to people, resist the urge to cut. I know I'm just a little 15 year old but I really hope this helps and best wishes.

I agree entirely, you are very wise and mature for your age(coming from a 14 year old XD). Anyway back on topic, I went through a dark period with my family and video games helped exponential amounts, I'm not saying you have to game... But try to find a hobby that swallows you up and puts you in a kind of bliss (Drawing, listening to music, playing music, writing, exercising, sunbathing, cooking, reading, sports maybe.., SEX) those are some suggestions but if you have something that you like to do go for it. I hope that helps :D I also hope that you can pull yourself out of what ever you're going through... Good Luck