Lexshmi
July 5th, 2013, 01:05 AM
Now, to get to my issue - I recently met a very nice, very kind, very caring guy who had graduated a year before me. Now, this will come into relevance later, but, he is currently 18, going on 19 in October, and I am 17 going on 18 in August. To make things short, he (Freddie) and I got to talking and eventually decided to go see The Fast and the Furious 6 with my mom. We came to find out that we had a lot in common, and ended up liking each other, even though that was neither of our intentions. On our way home from the movie, Freddie brought up that his parents wanted to meet my mother and I, which I didn't think of anything at the time, but it did make me rather nervous. We weren't dating yet, and they already wanted to meet me? I went along anyway, as not to be rude, and my mom and I met his parents. They both seemed like very nice, very kind people - especially his mother, who I took a liking to. His father, on the other hand, didn't talk all that much and kept busy on his iPad, often interrupting the conversation between Freddie's mother and I to show him a video of a car, or new parts he wanted to order for himself. The father did end up saying some things that stuck out to me, and they were pretty much the only words he spoke to me that entire day. He informed me and my mother, who seemed very out of place, that he and his wife "get rid" of anyone they don't like their son hanging around, and that includes friends. He went on to say how he pays for his son's car insurance, as well as college classes and cell phone bill, which is fine and all, but I didn't see how that was relevant at all to the discussion. I understood the father's concern rather well. If someone didn't seem right with my mom, she would let me know, but I know she would trust my judgement enough for me to make the final call. I brushed his words off and eventually forgot about them.
Fast forward three days later, when I'm hanging out with Freddie at my house. We had just gotten back from longboarding around my neighborhood, which was the first time he decided to hold my hand after getting over his nerves, as he told me, and were cuddling on the sofa, watching YouTube videos on his iPhone. We soon realized that it was 9:30 at night, and he had to be at work at 6 AM the following morning, so he got up and got ready to leave, however, he stood in the doorway for a while hugging me and talking, which, of course, I didn't mind one bit. His cell phone begins to ring moments later, and he informs me it was his dad and he was not happy. He left as soon as he got off the phone, giving me one final hug before driving off in his car. I get a text a little while after, informing me that he doesn't know when we will be hanging out again because, as his father put it, he was being irresponsible in the fact that he was at my house until 9:30, and his parents told them that he was "overwhelming" me. He told me his father took his car from him, and that he will only be able to use it to get to work and back. That was fine. I understood that, especially seeing as how his parents pay his car insurance, so I let that slide. He started coming over two days later with my mom picking him up from his house when we wanted to hang out (I don't drive yet. I know, bad at my age, but I see it as I need to find a job first, which no one wants to hire, so I can pay for things on my own). Now, he and I had A LOT in common, as I believe I stated earlier. We shared an interest in video games, comic books, sports, anime, as well as our love for Pokemon. I had picked him up a Pokemon card deck at Target, as well as one for myself, and we both turned into the biggest dorks you've ever seen.
That evening, Freddie and I took my mom's car to go pick up a pizza we called in downtown. We drove by an ex-friend of his, and he pointed out that that was his house. I had talked to the ex-friend, Jesse, a few times, and he seemed like a rather nice guy, but he had some pretty nasty things to say about the guy I had taken an interest in before he and I begun to hang out. I didn't take Jesse's words to heart, and I like to judge people for myself, rather than base my opinions according to what others have to say about them, which is why I begun hanging out with Freddie. Now, after he and I picked up the pizza, got back to my place, and sat down to eat, I receive a text from Jesse, who was in his garage when we drove by his place. I found it rather suspicious, as did Freddie, for Jesse to text me out of the blue like that. When I began hanging out with Freddie, Jesse cut all contact with me. He asked what I was doing, and i replied that Freddie and I were hanging out. All of the bad things he had told me about Freddie seemed to fly out the window, and he informed me that he was "very happy" for Freddie and I. He soon stopped texting out of the blue, and after we ate, Freddie and I sat down to play another game of Pokemon cards. As soon as we sat down, Freddie receives a text from none other than Jesse, telling him that he "forgives him for everything he's done and hopes they can be friends again". I was happy for them, despite how odd Jesse was acting, and told Freddie to hang out with Jesse whenever possible. He didn't reply to Jesse, so I let it be. I never heard from Jesse after that.
Fast-forward about a week later, and Freddie finally got his car back, which meant he began coming over a lot more often than usual. He had come over one day before he had to leave for tennis practice, and we hung out and watched TV, eventually both falling asleep. I had given him a cross necklace from American Eagle that day, after I heard him complaining about how his cross necklace was wearing out and he needed to buy a new one. He was extremely happy that I had given him a necklace, and instantly put it on, never taking it off after that day. He left as soon as he woke up because of the time, and he texted me as soon as practice was over, as usual. I don't remember the entire conversation (we would literally text all day until one or the other passed it), but I do remember playfully and jokingly asking him when he was going to ask me to be his girlfriend. He told me he had no idea because he was trying to think of a cute way to ask me, but was coming up short. I told him I didn't need cute, I just needed to know that he wanted to be with me, to which he said yes, and asked me out over text (I didn't mind it being over text one bit, especially after he poured his heart out to me in said text). I agreed to being his girlfriend, and we both made it "Facebook" official. I didn't hear from him after that, and figured he had passed out, since it was 11:30 and he was usually beat at the end of the day from work and tennis practice.
I wake up the next day, expecting my usual goodmorning text from him, but was taken by surprise when I saw a Facebook message instead. He was on his friend from work's phone, and told me his father had taken his phone away, again for being "irresponsible" for being up so late talking to me. Now, the man would not have known this, but as soon as freddie and I made things "Facebook official", his father friended me on Facebook, which I did find a bit weird. the guy had barely spoken to me, even when I went to their house to hang out with Freddie. I began guessing that his dad didn't like me, and took his phone in hopes to break us up. I didn't talk to Freddie for about three days, which was very hard on me, seeing as how he and I talked all day, everyday, but I got by. I eventually friended his friend Kendal on Facebook, and messaged him, saying hi and introduced myself, since I had heard a lot about him from Freddie. I got a message back from Kendal, introducing himself, telling me he's heard nothing but good about me and that he has never seen Freddie so crazy about a girl. We got to talking, and he asked me if I've talked to Freddie recently because he wasn't returning his texts or Facebook messages, despite him being online on Facebook. I told him what happened, and he immediately went on about how Freddie's dad is a bit of a control freak and it should all work itself out. We soon got off that topic and discussed hanging out when Freddie got his phone back, and playing ping ping with him and his girlfriend. I soon friended Kendal's girlfriend, Kayla, and we started discussing random things and what we'd like to do together once she got back home from Hawaii. All was fine and well until one day...
I decided to visit Freddie at his work during his break, just to say hi and let him know I was still around despite what happened with his dad. He was very happy to see me, pulling me into a hug and not letting go the entire time we were talking, and he mentioned that he had tried to email me from his iPod to my Facebook e-mail, but it didn't go through. I gave him my e-mail address so we could talk easier, and asked him if we were going to be okay and whatnot. He reassured me with a smile, and told me he has no idea when he will get his phone back or what his dad's problem is. I told him that someone had been using his Facebook, and he was taken by surprise before saying that his dad had his phone, and that would be the only person checking his Facebook. He told me his dad is very nosy and not to worry about it. Eventually, he spots a car pulling into the parking lot, and sure enough, it's his mother. He mutters, oh great, under his breath and his mom parks a few feet away at the donut shop. I wave to her, but I don't even get so much as a hello from the woman, and she asks Freddie if he wants anything from the donut shop before heading inside. I didn't make much of the woman not saying hello to me, figuring maybe she was in a hurry or such, and Freddie tells me he will hear about this later. This being my visit to him. I had to leave, and so did he because his break was over, so we kiss goodbye and go on our way.
I get an e-mail from him after he gets off work, telling me he had a talk with his parents and he does not know where I stand with them. He said he and I are fine, and he will not let his parents tear us apart, and that he is trying everything he can to get them to reason. Apparently, their deal with me was a Facebook status I wrote after visiting their house. Freddie and I had been approached by his younger brother that day while we were playing PS3, and his brother starts going on about he is going to hook Freddie up with a bunch of girls in Santa Cruz, and that it won't matter because I'm miles away from them, so it doesn't count. Freddie got very angry with his brother, put his arm around me, pulled me in close, and told his brother that he is not going anywhere with him. He went on to say if he goes to Santa Cruz, it will be with me. That did put me at ease a bit, but I still felt uncomfortable about the situation, as well as being a very shy person, so I left early. The Facebook status I wrote about the younger brother was saying I'd have loved to chin check him, with a jk at the end of that sentence. Apparently, his parents didn't like that, nor did they know how to take a joke, as Freddie told me, and were on his case. He told his parents what his brother did, and that I was only joking, but apparently they didn't care, and went on to tell him that he should've stuck up for his brother instead of me. I apologized to both his mother and father through Facebook, but I never got a reply back from them, even after I offered to go to dinner with them and Freddie so I could make amends. In one of his later emails, he mentions that he understands where his parents are coming from, in the aspect of them telling him to focus more on school and work, which I understood, as well, but he had been focusing, so I had no idea what to make of that.
A week passes, and everything up until that point has been fine. Freddie and I have been communicating through e-mail, and even though it was difficult, we were still very much dedicated to each other. I get a random text from Jesse, whom I haven't talked with since our last discussion, asking if I knew what happened with Freddie. I guess he hadn't been answering his texts, either (obviously). I tell him what happened, and Jesse suddenly vanishes. I get a text from him later, telling me that everything has been cleared up, and that he went to Freddie's work to ask him for the story. I was dumbfounded as to why Jesse had to go validate the information I told him, and even confronted him about it. He told me that there is two sides to every story, and he wanted to hear it from both sides. He continued texting me, eventually telling me that Freddie made him promise not to tell me something they discussed. Why Jesse felt the need to even mention that is beyond me, but I suppose it was to stir up trouble, because he continued to get rude as time went on. I eventually stopped talking to him. I e-mailed Freddie about the entire thing, but never got a reply back.
That night, Jesse texts me again, saying 'guess who got their phone back!'. After that text, I was beyond angry with Jesse. I noticed Freddie himself was on Facebook, and tried messaging him there to no avail. I figured it was his dad, again, and Jesse was just trying to stir me up, but then Jesse tells me that Freddie texted him first, and he is over his house now, swimming with him and his family. I eventually get a text from Freddie telling me to calm down, everything is fine, and we will talk more the next day. Let's just say, I didn't sleep much that night.
The next day rolls around, and I get a text from Freddie telling me that our relationship was over. That he just wasn't feeling it anymore. I was beyond confused and hurt at that point. I ask Jesse what exactly happened, since Freddie wouldn't talk to me, and he tells me that Freddie needed advice, and Jesse decided to play hero and give him that advice. He didn't go into detail on what the topic discussed was, but I have a gut feeling it had to do with me and Freddie's parents.
Eventually, Freddie stops talking to me altogether, but Jesse keeps on. Jesse goes on to call me emotionally unstable for having insecurities, as well as being a stalker for visiting my (then) boyfriend at his work, during his break, which Freddie had told me was completely fine to do! I eventually stop talking to Jesse, as well, and as time goes on, I get wind that Freddie is talking to a new girl, from none other than Jesse himself. Shocker! Jesse goes on to tell me that Freddie and this new girl met at tennis practice, and that she lives a half hour away from the town Freddie and I reside in. He continues to inform me how much Freddie's parents love this new girl, whom I'm beginning to wonder if they specifically picked her out for him, and got rid of me. They let Freddie miss work to go to baseball games with this girl, as well as let him talk to her all he wants. The thing I find weird, though, is that he and I would always write statuses about each other when we would hang out, and we had things Facebook official, but with this new girl, he doesn't mention her on his profile at all. This new girl is exactly what his parents wanted. A girl who plays tennis and isn't around as often.
Now, before you say Freddie was probably cheating on me the entire time, no. A friend of mine was actually dating Freddie a year or so prior, and they really hit it off with each other, as he and I did. We were able to be ourselves around him, and he was able to be himself around us. Apparently, his parents did the same to her, as they did to me. She told me they don't like girls who are "immature", as in liking video games, Pokemon, skateboarding, etc. All of the things their son likes. They like girls who are "mature", despite the fact that the girls they like party and drink, which Freddie does not do. Jesse informed me that this new girl and Freddie have a lot in common, to which I laughed. I know for a fact Freddie doesn't play Pokemon cards with this girl, let alone be himself around her. She is a partier, and one of those girls who thinks she is too good for everyone. I don't understand his parents.
The thing that strikes me the most is that everything Freddie and I discussed in text was most likely read by his father. We discussed going to San Francisco one day for a nice trip, Santa Cruz, a Maroon 5 concert, Los Angeles, a Giants baseball game... and now it seems that those things his father didn't want him doing with me, is okay for his done to do with this new girl. They've only gone to one baseball game in Oakland, but they stayed out until 1 in the morning because the game ran late. He was irresponsible, according to his dad, for being at my house until 9:30, but it's okay for him to be out until 1 AM on a work night? What?
I guess, what I'm saying here, is I just need advice on where to go from here. I'm beyond confused by this entire situation, and lack closure. My feelings for Freddie have not gone away. They are very much there, and every night, I pray and wish that either none of this happened, or that he would contact me or something! This is killing me.
For those too lazy to read all of this text, long story short, Freddie's parents didn't like me, gave him an ultimatum of getting rid of me in order to get his privileges back, and now I'm stuck in the dark, confused and hurt. I need advice.
Fast forward three days later, when I'm hanging out with Freddie at my house. We had just gotten back from longboarding around my neighborhood, which was the first time he decided to hold my hand after getting over his nerves, as he told me, and were cuddling on the sofa, watching YouTube videos on his iPhone. We soon realized that it was 9:30 at night, and he had to be at work at 6 AM the following morning, so he got up and got ready to leave, however, he stood in the doorway for a while hugging me and talking, which, of course, I didn't mind one bit. His cell phone begins to ring moments later, and he informs me it was his dad and he was not happy. He left as soon as he got off the phone, giving me one final hug before driving off in his car. I get a text a little while after, informing me that he doesn't know when we will be hanging out again because, as his father put it, he was being irresponsible in the fact that he was at my house until 9:30, and his parents told them that he was "overwhelming" me. He told me his father took his car from him, and that he will only be able to use it to get to work and back. That was fine. I understood that, especially seeing as how his parents pay his car insurance, so I let that slide. He started coming over two days later with my mom picking him up from his house when we wanted to hang out (I don't drive yet. I know, bad at my age, but I see it as I need to find a job first, which no one wants to hire, so I can pay for things on my own). Now, he and I had A LOT in common, as I believe I stated earlier. We shared an interest in video games, comic books, sports, anime, as well as our love for Pokemon. I had picked him up a Pokemon card deck at Target, as well as one for myself, and we both turned into the biggest dorks you've ever seen.
That evening, Freddie and I took my mom's car to go pick up a pizza we called in downtown. We drove by an ex-friend of his, and he pointed out that that was his house. I had talked to the ex-friend, Jesse, a few times, and he seemed like a rather nice guy, but he had some pretty nasty things to say about the guy I had taken an interest in before he and I begun to hang out. I didn't take Jesse's words to heart, and I like to judge people for myself, rather than base my opinions according to what others have to say about them, which is why I begun hanging out with Freddie. Now, after he and I picked up the pizza, got back to my place, and sat down to eat, I receive a text from Jesse, who was in his garage when we drove by his place. I found it rather suspicious, as did Freddie, for Jesse to text me out of the blue like that. When I began hanging out with Freddie, Jesse cut all contact with me. He asked what I was doing, and i replied that Freddie and I were hanging out. All of the bad things he had told me about Freddie seemed to fly out the window, and he informed me that he was "very happy" for Freddie and I. He soon stopped texting out of the blue, and after we ate, Freddie and I sat down to play another game of Pokemon cards. As soon as we sat down, Freddie receives a text from none other than Jesse, telling him that he "forgives him for everything he's done and hopes they can be friends again". I was happy for them, despite how odd Jesse was acting, and told Freddie to hang out with Jesse whenever possible. He didn't reply to Jesse, so I let it be. I never heard from Jesse after that.
Fast-forward about a week later, and Freddie finally got his car back, which meant he began coming over a lot more often than usual. He had come over one day before he had to leave for tennis practice, and we hung out and watched TV, eventually both falling asleep. I had given him a cross necklace from American Eagle that day, after I heard him complaining about how his cross necklace was wearing out and he needed to buy a new one. He was extremely happy that I had given him a necklace, and instantly put it on, never taking it off after that day. He left as soon as he woke up because of the time, and he texted me as soon as practice was over, as usual. I don't remember the entire conversation (we would literally text all day until one or the other passed it), but I do remember playfully and jokingly asking him when he was going to ask me to be his girlfriend. He told me he had no idea because he was trying to think of a cute way to ask me, but was coming up short. I told him I didn't need cute, I just needed to know that he wanted to be with me, to which he said yes, and asked me out over text (I didn't mind it being over text one bit, especially after he poured his heart out to me in said text). I agreed to being his girlfriend, and we both made it "Facebook" official. I didn't hear from him after that, and figured he had passed out, since it was 11:30 and he was usually beat at the end of the day from work and tennis practice.
I wake up the next day, expecting my usual goodmorning text from him, but was taken by surprise when I saw a Facebook message instead. He was on his friend from work's phone, and told me his father had taken his phone away, again for being "irresponsible" for being up so late talking to me. Now, the man would not have known this, but as soon as freddie and I made things "Facebook official", his father friended me on Facebook, which I did find a bit weird. the guy had barely spoken to me, even when I went to their house to hang out with Freddie. I began guessing that his dad didn't like me, and took his phone in hopes to break us up. I didn't talk to Freddie for about three days, which was very hard on me, seeing as how he and I talked all day, everyday, but I got by. I eventually friended his friend Kendal on Facebook, and messaged him, saying hi and introduced myself, since I had heard a lot about him from Freddie. I got a message back from Kendal, introducing himself, telling me he's heard nothing but good about me and that he has never seen Freddie so crazy about a girl. We got to talking, and he asked me if I've talked to Freddie recently because he wasn't returning his texts or Facebook messages, despite him being online on Facebook. I told him what happened, and he immediately went on about how Freddie's dad is a bit of a control freak and it should all work itself out. We soon got off that topic and discussed hanging out when Freddie got his phone back, and playing ping ping with him and his girlfriend. I soon friended Kendal's girlfriend, Kayla, and we started discussing random things and what we'd like to do together once she got back home from Hawaii. All was fine and well until one day...
I decided to visit Freddie at his work during his break, just to say hi and let him know I was still around despite what happened with his dad. He was very happy to see me, pulling me into a hug and not letting go the entire time we were talking, and he mentioned that he had tried to email me from his iPod to my Facebook e-mail, but it didn't go through. I gave him my e-mail address so we could talk easier, and asked him if we were going to be okay and whatnot. He reassured me with a smile, and told me he has no idea when he will get his phone back or what his dad's problem is. I told him that someone had been using his Facebook, and he was taken by surprise before saying that his dad had his phone, and that would be the only person checking his Facebook. He told me his dad is very nosy and not to worry about it. Eventually, he spots a car pulling into the parking lot, and sure enough, it's his mother. He mutters, oh great, under his breath and his mom parks a few feet away at the donut shop. I wave to her, but I don't even get so much as a hello from the woman, and she asks Freddie if he wants anything from the donut shop before heading inside. I didn't make much of the woman not saying hello to me, figuring maybe she was in a hurry or such, and Freddie tells me he will hear about this later. This being my visit to him. I had to leave, and so did he because his break was over, so we kiss goodbye and go on our way.
I get an e-mail from him after he gets off work, telling me he had a talk with his parents and he does not know where I stand with them. He said he and I are fine, and he will not let his parents tear us apart, and that he is trying everything he can to get them to reason. Apparently, their deal with me was a Facebook status I wrote after visiting their house. Freddie and I had been approached by his younger brother that day while we were playing PS3, and his brother starts going on about he is going to hook Freddie up with a bunch of girls in Santa Cruz, and that it won't matter because I'm miles away from them, so it doesn't count. Freddie got very angry with his brother, put his arm around me, pulled me in close, and told his brother that he is not going anywhere with him. He went on to say if he goes to Santa Cruz, it will be with me. That did put me at ease a bit, but I still felt uncomfortable about the situation, as well as being a very shy person, so I left early. The Facebook status I wrote about the younger brother was saying I'd have loved to chin check him, with a jk at the end of that sentence. Apparently, his parents didn't like that, nor did they know how to take a joke, as Freddie told me, and were on his case. He told his parents what his brother did, and that I was only joking, but apparently they didn't care, and went on to tell him that he should've stuck up for his brother instead of me. I apologized to both his mother and father through Facebook, but I never got a reply back from them, even after I offered to go to dinner with them and Freddie so I could make amends. In one of his later emails, he mentions that he understands where his parents are coming from, in the aspect of them telling him to focus more on school and work, which I understood, as well, but he had been focusing, so I had no idea what to make of that.
A week passes, and everything up until that point has been fine. Freddie and I have been communicating through e-mail, and even though it was difficult, we were still very much dedicated to each other. I get a random text from Jesse, whom I haven't talked with since our last discussion, asking if I knew what happened with Freddie. I guess he hadn't been answering his texts, either (obviously). I tell him what happened, and Jesse suddenly vanishes. I get a text from him later, telling me that everything has been cleared up, and that he went to Freddie's work to ask him for the story. I was dumbfounded as to why Jesse had to go validate the information I told him, and even confronted him about it. He told me that there is two sides to every story, and he wanted to hear it from both sides. He continued texting me, eventually telling me that Freddie made him promise not to tell me something they discussed. Why Jesse felt the need to even mention that is beyond me, but I suppose it was to stir up trouble, because he continued to get rude as time went on. I eventually stopped talking to him. I e-mailed Freddie about the entire thing, but never got a reply back.
That night, Jesse texts me again, saying 'guess who got their phone back!'. After that text, I was beyond angry with Jesse. I noticed Freddie himself was on Facebook, and tried messaging him there to no avail. I figured it was his dad, again, and Jesse was just trying to stir me up, but then Jesse tells me that Freddie texted him first, and he is over his house now, swimming with him and his family. I eventually get a text from Freddie telling me to calm down, everything is fine, and we will talk more the next day. Let's just say, I didn't sleep much that night.
The next day rolls around, and I get a text from Freddie telling me that our relationship was over. That he just wasn't feeling it anymore. I was beyond confused and hurt at that point. I ask Jesse what exactly happened, since Freddie wouldn't talk to me, and he tells me that Freddie needed advice, and Jesse decided to play hero and give him that advice. He didn't go into detail on what the topic discussed was, but I have a gut feeling it had to do with me and Freddie's parents.
Eventually, Freddie stops talking to me altogether, but Jesse keeps on. Jesse goes on to call me emotionally unstable for having insecurities, as well as being a stalker for visiting my (then) boyfriend at his work, during his break, which Freddie had told me was completely fine to do! I eventually stop talking to Jesse, as well, and as time goes on, I get wind that Freddie is talking to a new girl, from none other than Jesse himself. Shocker! Jesse goes on to tell me that Freddie and this new girl met at tennis practice, and that she lives a half hour away from the town Freddie and I reside in. He continues to inform me how much Freddie's parents love this new girl, whom I'm beginning to wonder if they specifically picked her out for him, and got rid of me. They let Freddie miss work to go to baseball games with this girl, as well as let him talk to her all he wants. The thing I find weird, though, is that he and I would always write statuses about each other when we would hang out, and we had things Facebook official, but with this new girl, he doesn't mention her on his profile at all. This new girl is exactly what his parents wanted. A girl who plays tennis and isn't around as often.
Now, before you say Freddie was probably cheating on me the entire time, no. A friend of mine was actually dating Freddie a year or so prior, and they really hit it off with each other, as he and I did. We were able to be ourselves around him, and he was able to be himself around us. Apparently, his parents did the same to her, as they did to me. She told me they don't like girls who are "immature", as in liking video games, Pokemon, skateboarding, etc. All of the things their son likes. They like girls who are "mature", despite the fact that the girls they like party and drink, which Freddie does not do. Jesse informed me that this new girl and Freddie have a lot in common, to which I laughed. I know for a fact Freddie doesn't play Pokemon cards with this girl, let alone be himself around her. She is a partier, and one of those girls who thinks she is too good for everyone. I don't understand his parents.
The thing that strikes me the most is that everything Freddie and I discussed in text was most likely read by his father. We discussed going to San Francisco one day for a nice trip, Santa Cruz, a Maroon 5 concert, Los Angeles, a Giants baseball game... and now it seems that those things his father didn't want him doing with me, is okay for his done to do with this new girl. They've only gone to one baseball game in Oakland, but they stayed out until 1 in the morning because the game ran late. He was irresponsible, according to his dad, for being at my house until 9:30, but it's okay for him to be out until 1 AM on a work night? What?
I guess, what I'm saying here, is I just need advice on where to go from here. I'm beyond confused by this entire situation, and lack closure. My feelings for Freddie have not gone away. They are very much there, and every night, I pray and wish that either none of this happened, or that he would contact me or something! This is killing me.
For those too lazy to read all of this text, long story short, Freddie's parents didn't like me, gave him an ultimatum of getting rid of me in order to get his privileges back, and now I'm stuck in the dark, confused and hurt. I need advice.