An ever lasting pain

[xXoblivionXx]

You know that feeling when you're laying in bed and you know that it's not going to get better and that tomorrow will be the same as today. That pain that grows in your chest until , it hurts to breathe. The thoughts roaming in your head giving you a head ache. You feel so alone, no one to talk to, no one to go to. That moment when you start to wonder what if you didn't have to deal with tomorrow, what if you could just be gone. That feeling, that pain, that moment, that's what I'm feeling now :(

[Overture Libra]

I completely understand how that feels. I also have very little people to talk to or connect with. I used to let it get to me all the time, it would always bring tears to my eyes. It made me feel a pit of guiltiness in my heart, like it's my fault for being so lonely. I was so vulnerable to the feeling and I couldn't get it out of my mind, and I cried myself to sleep every night because of it. I always wondered, "Is something wrong with me? Why aren't I good enough? Why is it so easy for everyone else to have a ton of friends and support, and I'm always left with the cold shoulder to fend for myself?"

I got over that though, and I feel better now. It's not that you're not good enough, because I know for a fact that you are. If you're the shy type, it's because you never share enough of your personality, you never show enough of who you are for others to see. If you are the shy type and you like keeping to yourself, I guarantee you that others would be so much more interested in you if they knew what you were like. I don't mean you have to be super outgoing and be the center of attention; you just have to be yourself more around people, let your personality be shown.

As for me, it's because of this area's intolerance. Others know about the different things about me and how I highly contrast with them, and they don't like it, nor do they accept it. Here I'm just not welcomed because of my beliefs and differences. If that's the case, then you shouldn't let it get to you. There is nothing about you that makes you inferior to anyone else and that will always be true. It's just a hard phase in your life and I'm sure that it won't last forever, nothing does. Oh, and remember!! Suicide is a permanent action for temporary problems. You may have problems now, but they definitely won't last for nearly as many years as would be thrown away if you ended it all. D:

Maybe you should try to get out more if you already don't, and try to meet new people outside of your immediate location. You never know who's out there and who cares, it can really surprise you!

As for me? I got better because I had to take a detour: I simply stopped caring. I stopped caring that no one cares enough to talk to me, that I don't have anyone to depend on or any sort of support, and I don't care that my social life is practically nonexistent where I currently live. It's no longer a priority to me, that's what I did. I belittled the role of friends in my life, so now I no longer wonder why I've always been so alone. I don't recommend you do that, exactly, but that's how I've fixed it.

And I know for sure that I'm always here for you to talk to, so if you ever need to, don't be shy! :)

[Mynick]

Yeah, i usually start to over thinking and everything i did wrong crosses my mind and how shitty i am. My stomach starts to hurt and i can't sleep.
When that happens i try to do something, keep my mind busy. Usually open the PC and surf on the web as long i dont start thinking, i'm fine.

[Miserabilia]

Yeah, i usually start to over thinking and everything i did wrong crosses my mind and how shitty i am. My stomach starts to hurt and i can't sleep.
When that happens i try to do something, keep my mind busy. Usually open the PC and surf on the web as long i dont start thinking, i'm fine.

exactly, this is me