So In Love

[Yolshi]

Have any closet gays here ever been so in love with another guy that you think is straight but may possibly be gay? I mean we've all obviously have been victim to liking someone of the same gender that is straight, and it sucks especially if no one knows you're gay. However, I mean this person always goes out of their way to compliment you and hug you ( and for me he would always kiss me on the shoulder and do all of this touchy crap). I mean, he's really nice and compliments just about everyone he speaks to (and sort of butters them up lol) but he does a lot more for me in specific. He also tries to pull his crotch next to mine and make me hug him when he doesn't have a top on. Okay, I'm not going any further than that, since this topic has to deal with him liking me. Since I'm also a christian and he goes to my church, I actually had to force myself away from him and acted like I was mad at him and had this big fight with him, just so I wouldn't become to attracted to him anymore. I didn't want to grow attatched to him and stuff because of complicated reasons. This was before I fully realized that I was so much in love with him. So, this period lasted for a good six months or so, and for the duration of this time we would not speak or look at one another, literally. After we reconciled he jumped straight back into the touching, you could probably call it groping. I really want to know if he is Gay or not because I know he really likes girls, or just really likes to talk with them since he's never actually done anything with a female. I always have to act like I don't like what he's doing, like touching me or grabbing me, so he'll shove off but that's because I'm closeted, maybe he could be closeted as well? Or maybe he really likes to mess with me because my guy friends and almost (I seriously mean every guy at school, they joke about it and stuff) loves to touch and get close with me. I'm thinking it's the second reason, which may be obvious to some of you reading but my explanation of how he acts towards me may not have been clear enough for y'all to fully understand my circumstances. Basically, I know this post was extremely long and probably droned on but I've been thinking about this topic for quite some time. I just wanted to get my words and story out there and search for some suggestions because I really like this guy. Once again, sorry for the boring post and thanks!