Grandpa died

[Sudds3]

My grandpa died today around 3 pm from a rapidly growing brain cancer cell. And to be honest I'm not as sad as i really should be. We weren't too close because i rarely saw him since he lived in Maryland and i in Missouri. The one thing that is just really taking its toll on me is that i enjoyed talking about engineering with him and that last time i saw him was on my vacation to Europe about 2 weeks ago where we celebrated his and my grandmas 50th anniversary. We went to france to also visit my great grandpa who is 96. They took us to a nice lunch in the mountains of france which was amazing and that was the last time i saw him. They had to cut their vacation short since the cancer cell was causing pressure on his occipital lobe causing vision loss and other stuff. They went back to the states and gave him some medicine after some scans and they said he was going to be fine for now. Well yesterday he was checked into the ICU and today he died. My dad came back from the lake where my sister and mom are and he started packing to fly out to hopefully be able to say goodbye to his dad but he didn't make it. On his way out the door he got a call from his mom and just sat down and cried right there.

We knew he had been dying for a while but he seemed to be doing so well. And we thought he was going to be fine since the scans didn't show any immediate threat but i guess not. So now my dad is planning the funeral with his mom and we will fly out there soon to pay our last respects. Its just a freaky feeling thinking back to the vacation because that was the last time i saw him and i didn't even tell him i loved him. So now i feel kinda terrible because now he is gone and its a terrible feeling knowing that you could have done something so simple but now you cant ever make up for it.

[Life's Like This]

My grandmother died from breast cancer, and I didn't have the chance to tell her goodbye. I was like 4 years old back then in 2001.
I know it's harder in your case, but never forget that the dead need your prayers, and that your grandfather is always with you, watching from the sky.
Cancer is one cruel venomous snake.
You might want to listen to "Cancer" by My Chemical Romance. Music always helps me express my feelings.

May his soul rest in peace. And stay strong.

[Extreme586]

You can't blame yourself for not telling him you loved him the last time you saw him alive. You had no way of knowing he was going to pass and even though it was in the foreseeable future, none of you expected it to happen so unexpectedly.

The funny thing about love is that you don't have to tell someone how much you love them, they already know. I'm sure your grandfather knew you loved him very much.

[gotstyle]

So sorry

[nevillee9]

I'm so sorry. My grandad is dying and I'm just like you, I don't want him to go without saying I love you, but I can't make myself do it...

[brooklynchic]

I'm sorry for your lost of your grandfather. I know it's sad to lose someone you truly care about. I'm not sure if you're a bible reader, but a scripture that's very comforting to me is revelation 21:4 "And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes and death will be no more, neither will outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have past away." One day death will be done away with and we will be able to see our loved ones once again. I hope this scripture is of comfort for you

[Christian1]

Sorry :(

[Fanta_Lover44]

I'm sorry to here it, I've never really told my granddad that... Its not the kind if thing I would say to him and my other granddad is suffering from extremely bad memory lost.... Some take this things well and some take it bad. It's not your fault... He's always going to be there, looking down on you. Keep your best memories of him and don't let it go...