Pandazer
June 28th, 2013, 01:25 AM
I'm extremely unsociable when it comes to places like this and I just sit and stare...so I don't and probably won't post often. I just wanted to get stuff off my chest.
I haven't cut in about a year and a half, thanks to a very dear friend/ex-boyfriend of mine and the fact that I had just started and hadn't done it enough to be really drawn in. Although it really did help...Around the time I had first started cutting, my brother was going to a therapist so he could handle his anger issues. I made an small attempt to get help by asking/telling my mom that I thought I should see a therapist too. She brushed it off and laughed at me, saying there was nothing wrong with me and that I didn't need one. I kinda just left it at that and went on with my life. After I stopped cutting, I did think about doing it, but I never really did start it up until recently. Summer had started and me being almost completely unsociable through out my freshman year I didn't have anyone but one person who I hoped to spend my summer with. But it seems to have turned out that I'm pretty sure she doesn't want anything to do with me. And only claims to be my friend so she won't feel guilty. Who knows? I've always had friend issues, but I thought we were pretty close and not hearing from her for almost a month when break started and her excuse being that she was busy playing fallout. I had mixed emotions, it's not as bad as what other people have, but it is what broke me. And I then started to cut. And I am really ashamed, but at the same not. Sorry for the weird rant/confession.
I haven't cut in about a year and a half, thanks to a very dear friend/ex-boyfriend of mine and the fact that I had just started and hadn't done it enough to be really drawn in. Although it really did help...Around the time I had first started cutting, my brother was going to a therapist so he could handle his anger issues. I made an small attempt to get help by asking/telling my mom that I thought I should see a therapist too. She brushed it off and laughed at me, saying there was nothing wrong with me and that I didn't need one. I kinda just left it at that and went on with my life. After I stopped cutting, I did think about doing it, but I never really did start it up until recently. Summer had started and me being almost completely unsociable through out my freshman year I didn't have anyone but one person who I hoped to spend my summer with. But it seems to have turned out that I'm pretty sure she doesn't want anything to do with me. And only claims to be my friend so she won't feel guilty. Who knows? I've always had friend issues, but I thought we were pretty close and not hearing from her for almost a month when break started and her excuse being that she was busy playing fallout. I had mixed emotions, it's not as bad as what other people have, but it is what broke me. And I then started to cut. And I am really ashamed, but at the same not. Sorry for the weird rant/confession.