Annoyed...Life Bothering

[winter21]

For a fact I know I am not gay. I love women, girls, it's my favorite thing in life.

As of the past year or so I have had recent "Gay" fantasies and it's like I almost have a split personality, It creeps in the back of my head that pisses the hell out of me. I know I would never actually participate in any gay activity, I'm not actually attracted to any guy, nor have been. As of recent I just cant seem to enjoy myself because of this stupid feeling "Am I gay" that lurks in my mind. I know I am not though, Whenever I am out at parties or with friends there are always girls I get really attracted to.

Some things i've thought that it could be is :
A. I have not gotten much ass in my life and it's out of hopelessness, and sadness that i feel i can never get with the girls i like.
B. When i was like 8 unknowningly experimented with a friend by "Rubbing" dicks together....Having no idea at the time wrong and right...I believe it could be like muscle memory..
C. I've never been in a relationship with a girl. I've "Obsessed" (Not in a bad freaky stalker way) over girls that il ike and i never ever get with them = /...

I mean this post sounds like I know , but it's just frusterating having this sense of unsureness, but sureness. It bothers me everywhere now, i just want to hit things.

Any advice/anyone else feel this way/ etc?

I feel like I'm the only person with this issue.

Thanks.

[NextToNormal]

you're not the only one with this issue, trust me.

first, how old are you?? if you are still going through puberty, then thats really it. your hormines are all over the place and are trying to sort themselves out. just because you have "gay fantasies" doesnt neccisarily mean you are gay. you are still finding yourself.

im almost 17, so my hormones are pretty much where they should be. when i was younger, the same thing happened to me and im sure it happens to alot of people (the thinking of people of the same sex thing). its normal.

and dont worry that you have yet to be in a relationship...it will come with time.

[winter21]

I am 18 by the way.

[Mirataku]

well some sexologists claim that in order to develop a sexuality, our minds develop fantasies in order to produce an effective sexuality

[ideasgirl]

I'm a lesbian and I fantasise about guys when I masturbate. Whether it's straight sex or male gay sex. For some unknow reason I find it sexually arousing in the moment, but if a guy pulled out his dick in front of me in real life I'd probably vomit on it.

[yayMaddy]

I know exactly how you feel.
There are so many logical explainations to be straight, but those fears creep in the back of your head and spook you. I kind of look at it as saying, well these thoughts are here, but they don't seem like me. I've been told hundreds of times that you can't turn gay; That you're born one sexuality and it stays that way for the rest of your life.
I don't know what to call it, or how to deal with it yet.. And it doesn't seem like there's been a whole bunch of help in this thread.


Also, about obsessing.
I do it all the time over guys.. Even if I can't ever have a relationship with him. You're not alone.

Something that I don't understand is that recently, I've started highschool, and totally obsessed about guys.. All that was going through my mind was "Holy crap! Look at all of the attractive men! They're everywhere!!!"
But I haven't had a boyfriend, and my super-excited-"OMGHOTGUYS" phase kind of diminished.
Now I'm just confused to what's going on with my body.. Right now, I'm worried that I'm going to "turn" gay, mainly because I'm not obsessing over guys.
I'm afraid, that in my high school year, I'm going to change my mind and like girls.
I don't think that I will, nor do I want to.
It's just a fear.. Right? Will this go away?