R_master
December 29th, 2007, 12:48 AM
words cant express the way i'm feeling right now.
yesterday i was in shock and today I'm devastated. you were the most wonderful person iv'e met in my life, and i regret that i didn't spend more time with you while you were still here. I never felt even close to this much pain, even when members of my own family had passed on.
The day i found out about your murder i was at the front steps of work excited to go see you, since we were just talking this weekend about Christmas and finally getting to work together again. even though you were under appriciated by all the upper managers and shit everyone in your department loved you. After i found out i didn't even know how to feel.. i was in a daze.
it kills me that your gone, and now you little sis has lost not only you, but her big brother also :(
it hurt all of us that (knew) he beat you, and we told you to leave. some even offered shelter for as long as you needed..
the worst part is the morning you were moving out, not only that but it was a time for presents, celebration and love amongst family and friends...just not this...
before i read the news i at least hoped it wasn't painful and that you were spared from seeing what he did to your siblings. but then i felt as if a part of me died, with the descriptions of a brutal "slaughtering" and reading on how your brother was locked in a closet stabbed and bound like in the movies. i thank God that he made it out of there, saving your family some pain and suffering aside the loss of you and your other bro.
You were an inspiring individual, and i could never figure out how you juggled 3 jobs while still going to school. you were and still are beautiful, a person who put everyone before her self. I even feel guilty because i know it would make you sad maybe even angry that im hurting over you.
Although i don't only feel pain, but fucking rage. I wish the worst possible torture upon that piece of shit. you took care of his kids while he sat doing jack shit with his life. Its unthinkable how anyone could ever lay a hand on such a sweet girl. i can still picture the old bruises on your neck badly covered up with your makeup...:(
I pray that you didn't see him harm your siblings because i know that alone would be enough to kill you.
I love you and hope your in a much better place now...living the life you deserved
you will never be forgotten sweetheart
yesterday i was in shock and today I'm devastated. you were the most wonderful person iv'e met in my life, and i regret that i didn't spend more time with you while you were still here. I never felt even close to this much pain, even when members of my own family had passed on.
The day i found out about your murder i was at the front steps of work excited to go see you, since we were just talking this weekend about Christmas and finally getting to work together again. even though you were under appriciated by all the upper managers and shit everyone in your department loved you. After i found out i didn't even know how to feel.. i was in a daze.
it kills me that your gone, and now you little sis has lost not only you, but her big brother also :(
it hurt all of us that (knew) he beat you, and we told you to leave. some even offered shelter for as long as you needed..
the worst part is the morning you were moving out, not only that but it was a time for presents, celebration and love amongst family and friends...just not this...
before i read the news i at least hoped it wasn't painful and that you were spared from seeing what he did to your siblings. but then i felt as if a part of me died, with the descriptions of a brutal "slaughtering" and reading on how your brother was locked in a closet stabbed and bound like in the movies. i thank God that he made it out of there, saving your family some pain and suffering aside the loss of you and your other bro.
You were an inspiring individual, and i could never figure out how you juggled 3 jobs while still going to school. you were and still are beautiful, a person who put everyone before her self. I even feel guilty because i know it would make you sad maybe even angry that im hurting over you.
Although i don't only feel pain, but fucking rage. I wish the worst possible torture upon that piece of shit. you took care of his kids while he sat doing jack shit with his life. Its unthinkable how anyone could ever lay a hand on such a sweet girl. i can still picture the old bruises on your neck badly covered up with your makeup...:(
I pray that you didn't see him harm your siblings because i know that alone would be enough to kill you.
I love you and hope your in a much better place now...living the life you deserved
you will never be forgotten sweetheart