Feeling Alone

[Gumleaf]

i'm having issues in my life right now which have been expanded upon in other threads. i'm am feeling depressed quite a lot lately as all these things just build up more and more. i put on a brave face at home because my parents have enough on their plate then to worry about me but i'm just not coping well at all. usually i turn to my friends to help me through these times but of course its the christmas period, so nobody is around to talk to. i'm just feeling very alone. i know things will get better but i don't know how i can go on like this.

[Serenity]

Aww :hugs: I know exactly how you feel. That's why I love VT- I can always find someone to talk to, if not a shoulder to lean on. Stay strong, we're all here for you!

[Maverick]

You aren't alone - there are plenty of people who care about you. Don't lose signt of that and like Valerie said we are here at the very least.

[Gumleaf]

thanks for your support guys, i know your all there for me. i felt really down when i wrote this but i've woken up ok this morning. but watch out mods, you might get a whinging pm from me next time i'm feeling down!

[Sugaree]

Hang in there trigger. I'm always free if you want to talk.

[Maverick]

thanks for your support guys, i know your all there for me. i felt really down when i wrote this but i've woken up ok this morning. but watch out mods, you might get a whinging pm from me next time i'm feeling down!
Glad you're feeling a little better. I obviously can't speak for myself, but I can for Valerie and she is an amazing person to talk to if you're feeling down. I can vouch for it. ;)

[Serenity]

Glad you're feeling a little better. I obviously can't speak for myself, but I can for Valerie and she is an amazing person to talk to if you're feeling down. I can vouch for it. ;)

Aw thank you :daisy: And I can ditto that and vouch for Ant :) Yeh, he's a pretty fantabulous dude.

[thesphinx]

I'm a bit late on this one, but you can talk to me anytime also :D

[byee]

I'm really sorry to hear this, Stephen. Even though I'm just a 'regular' person, feel free to PM me. It's not 'whinging', it's reaching out.

[Gumleaf]

thankyou for all your support vt people out there. i'm much more up beat today, but next time i feel down i will remember that your all here to support me. thanks heaps.

[Patchy]

Here, every single person on this forum will support any member that wants help and company, I'm here for you any time.

[Gumleaf]

well here we are. this is just a description of how i'm feeling today and over the last few days. this is my way of getting things off my chest. i'm not looking for sympathy or anything like that, but it makes me feel better just typing about it. so here we go.

well i strated the week very much down in the dumps. i usually turn to my friends and my gf jessica during these times, but since its christmas week, there is nobody around. for much of monday and tuesday i felt like this until i spoke to a friend on the phone about it for ages on christmas night. i tried to keep upbeat around my family. my sister, although she is much older then i am (21), is really struggling to deal about my mum's health issues like i am. trying to stay strong for her and my mum is wearing me down, and i now find myself feeling alone because i had nobody to talk to about it and my theory is that my parents have enough to worry about then to bother with me at the moment.

boxing day (wednesday) i was down, even though i spoke to my friend joanne about it at length on christmas night. but after spending the afternoon with jess, i was feeling better again, only to find that when i got home i was depressed again because i was seeing my mum in so much pain (she is waiting for surgery that will happen in january), while still trying to keep a smile on my face.

thursday, i was a bit more upbeat. we had relatives visit during the day that took my mind off things, even though things were still crap in the house. what made things worse was that my dad wanted to take my mum to the hospital because she is in so much pain which got me worried even more. but while this is happening i'm still worried but keeping my smile on my face. late thursday night i spoke to jess which made it a bit better.

today, friday. well i woke this morning to find my mum looking the best she has all week. the pain was less then it has been and she was a little more comfortable. this was enough for me to be genuinely upbeat and i have been good so far today without putting on the brave face. we have relatives visiting for dinner so i'm hopeful of having the best day this week today.

i'm looking forward to a new years party on monday night. this will hopefully be a big boost for me. thanks to all of you who have been supporting me during this difficult time for me. i appreciate it more then you will probably ever know.

[Serenity]

this is my way of getting things off my chest. i'm not looking for sympathy or anything like that, but it makes me feel better just typing about it.

Yeah, I feel you man. I'll give you my 2 cents anyway :daisy:

I know there's really nothing at all I or anybody can say to make things better, but I do know what it's like to be in a helpless situation where all you want is a way to make things right which is just impossible and you feel like you need to be strong for everyone else. It is so wonderful that you're putting so much of yourself into keeping that smile on your face for your family, and it is so wonderful that you want to do any and everything to make your parents' lives easier. But Stephen just remember, you need someone to help you, too. No one can bear such a burden by themself, no one. Keep talking to your friends, keep talking to your girlfriend, keep posting on VT, but you need your family as much as they need you. Don't isolate yourself from them by being the Big Man who stays strong for everyone else.

Regardless of the immeasurable strength I'm sure you have, you know that this face you're putting on is weighing down on you. And regardless of your immeasurable strength, the fact is that you're a teenager like the rest of us, and teenagers need parents. Just sit down with your them sometimes and have a conversation with them- even if it's not about your mom's sickness. What you need the most right now is your family. You all need to stay together as a unit and support each other. Start hugging your parents, it's a simple gesture that says a lot. I guarantee you that even though the situation may not improve any time soon, you will physically and emotionally feel infinitely better if you regain that parent-child relationship that all teenagers need, especially during the time of a crisis.

/$.02

:hug:

[Gumleaf]

i know this is turning into my whinging thread, so like in the last post i'm not asking for sympathy, i'm just expressing how i'm feeling. this week has been rotten so far and has not got any better tonight. just when i thought i had a new years eve party on monday night to lift my spirits, it has now been cancelled and now most likely i will be spending new years at home pretty much on my own. so not only am i down in the dumps again, i'm angry as well and just wish this time of hell in my life would just take a small turn for the better. just when it looks like i'm about to turn a positive corner, something happens and it turns out being something bad happening. i'm sick of it and wish something good would happen in my life for a change. its like the daily double, get a crappy christmas and throw in a crappy new years for free.