I could kill my friends

[ShatteredGlass]

I was driving my friends to school the other day when I thought occurred to me...I could kill us all. All the oncoming traffic, the walls I passed, the trees, the thought stayed there. I could kill my friends, I could kill me. And I thought how shocked everyone would be, how much attention it would all get, I thought about how my friends would be with me forever and they would never have another friend. But i drove us to school and we were fine. but I had to ask myself how long will I have these thoughts safely, because each time I think about it. it makes a little more sense, it sounds a little less wrong. I need to talk to a therapist, but I dont have money for that. It's so weird I am so successful at times, got into a top college, driven, triple AAA state athlete, speak three languages, and part of me is crazy and i dont know how long i can keep that under wraps.

[tubanic]

I don't think that this is craziness at all, we all have flashing thoughts and we think, what the hell was I thinking?! afterwards. If you have driving suicidal feelings then you should seek help. Maybe confide in a family member or friend or teacher and tell them your concerns. Maybe you just need a little more support as you are feeling a bit depressed and unsatisfied with life at the moment. And don't put yourself in positions where you could make rash desisions that could put you or others in danger
Good luck :)

[Samual]

sometimes i get weird, crazy thoughts like that, but i dont think its anything to worry about.

[Starscream]

It's normal getting "dark" thoughts like that, or what if type of situations. Just try not to dwell on those type of situations.

When I was younger, I too, would get "dark what would happen/what would I do" type of situations in my head. The only time you need to start worrying is when these thoughts consume you and your mindset or when you have a desire to act out on them.