Lonely

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It's the one thing in my life I can't seem to look past. I've been through a lot of crap, but there's one thing that always follows me. Loneliness.

I never feel like I have many friends. I don't have a social group to fit into, which makes me feel kind of like a loner and an outcast. By now, everybody has friends they hang out with all the time, and while I actually do, he's friends with people I hate so I tend to avoid the situation.

And then there's the problem that I have a big crush on a friend I know likes someone else. I try really hard to act like I don't care, but it actually hurts. A lot. It's really eating away at my self-confidence.

I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I'm not happy with the way my life is right now, and I don't see it getting any better in the future. Maybe I'm just meant to be alone?

[CharlieHorse]

It's the one thing in my life I can't seem to look past. I've been through a lot of crap, but there's one thing that always follows me. Loneliness.

I never feel like I have many friends. I don't have a social group to fit into, which makes me feel kind of like a loner and an outcast. By now, everybody has friends they hang out with all the time, and while I actually do, he's friends with people I hate so I tend to avoid the situation.

And then there's the problem that I have a big crush on a friend I know likes someone else. I try really hard to act like I don't care, but it actually hurts. A lot. It's really eating away at my self-confidence.

I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I'm not happy with the way my life is right now, and I don't see it getting any better in the future. Maybe I'm just meant to be alone?

Every word you say is the same thing I feel.
I have just a few friends locally. I didn't have any friends in middle or elementary school.

I have a couple acquaintances

Kate: we fell in love, then she dumped me because I'm not good enough for her. I managed to keep our awkward friendship. I can't be myself around her.

Andy: I like him a lot. But he moved away, and he doesn't really like me that much. He has better friends than me that he hangs with. He thinks I'm creepy for liking him a lot.

That's all I have around me.

My VT friends are my best friends... my only real friends. I love you guys so much <3 :)
Everyone else has great close friends it seems.

My dad thinks there's something wrong with me. He thinks I'm a failure. A fuck up. He thinks I'm a self centered ass hole. He's right.
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Crushing on others hurts so much. They never feel the same way about me. And i always fall in love with the people I can't have. It just hurts, I can't take it. Just the other day I told someone that I loved them. She's one of the most wonderful girls i've ever met. I put her on the spot. I know she didn't feel the same about me. It was so stupid too, my chances with her were less than zero. I think I just made her feel awkward. I'm sorry.
I cry every night... by myself, in the dark.
I've given up on my chances for love.

[The-Chosen-Hero]

I never feel like I have many friends. I don't have a social group to fit into, which makes me feel kind of like a loner and an outcast. By now, everybody has friends they hang out with all the time, and while I actually do, he's friends with people I hate so I tend to avoid the situation.

And then there's the problem that I have a big crush on a friend I know likes someone else. I try really hard to act like I don't care, but it actually hurts. A lot. It's really eating away at my self-confidence.


I know how you feel. I moved into town about 7 years ago and I was alone. People knew each other but I had no idea. I managed to get a pretty big gang (15 people) but one by one they left and I was alone again in highschool. It is true I have a lot of people I call 'friends' in higshcool but the reality of it is that they could care less about me. I would hang out with some people but they have friends I am not comfortable around with. So I just spend my times in library like a loner -.-. There is only off the top of my head probably around 10 friends I would considered to be true but we hardly even talk now. :/

Don't even get me started with crushes. I have one every season and wow are they out of my league. In fact my 340 pound friend was able to get a gf but I still can't because I freeze up. I am conscious of how I look I think I am always not good enough. That and the chance of rejection is something I stay away from. Not one girl I have asked out yet in my life. SMH. But dude you are a lower class men don't let time escape from you. I know rejection hard but keep on persevering and if you need friends to hang out with then try to fit in by being yourself. Get some people you know will be true friends. Not even a year is left and I am going to leave out of the Mainland of U.S.A, knowing I spent my school years alone. Don't let that happen to you dude.

[Farewell]

Ugh, I know how you guys feel. It's terrible. There have literally been times where I have cried myself to sleep because I thought I didn't have any friends anymore. I moved to a different town almost 8 years ago when I was in 3rd grade and made friends quickly, but hardly any of them have stayed by my side. It sucks so much. I had a girl that liked me in 3rd grade and we "dated" until 5th grade, and then kind of grew apart from each other. We got back together a couple of times during 7th and 8th grade, but now we never talk. Out of the 4 girlfriends that I have had, she's the only one that I can say that I truly loved. Now we hardly look at each other...

I've decided to stay single for a long time, possibly even the rest of my life, to be completely honest. Marriage is difficult, and I often like being independent and not needing to worry about anyone else.

2/3 of my so-called "popular" friends from middle school have gone their separate ways, but it's whatever. People grow apart and find others to make friends with. One specific thing that bothers me the most is that I met a really cool kid (shy!) late in 6th grade and we became friends really quickly. We were tight and he was my best friend in 7th grade. 7th grade summer was the best time of my life. As 8th grade went on, we didn't see nor hang out with each other as much anymore. Freshman year came and went, and it still wasn't the same. Although we were locker partners, he would awkwardly put his stuff in there without saying a word and then walked off to talk with a new group of friends. We still sat at the same lunch table but still seldom talked. Midway through the year he no longer sat at our table and permanently moved to the table with whom he would talk to in the morning.

Sophomore year was the worst. We still continued to be locker partners but hardly said anything to each other at ALL, now. After we got off the bus, he would quickly go to the locker, grab his stuff, and scurry off to his group of other friends. Every single day. Our friendship had never been so distant...

I wonder if it's something that I did or the way I act that caused us to grow apart, but he's a really shy guy and probably wouldn't say if I thought about asking him. He comes from an upper-middle class family while mine seems like it's towards the lower end, so I'm not sure if that has anything to do with it? He just texted me and asked me if I wanted to go on a bike ride with him tomorrow, so I guess that's a good thing, even though he probably won't have much to say and make things awkward... It will be interesting to see if he will ask me if I want to be locker partners again or if he decides to go with one of his other newer friends. Needless to say, we really faded. It'd be awesome to have my best bud back.