In a relationship with a boy... do i like boys?!

[StrawberryCyanide]

So this is kinda complicated. I'm 21 this year so i apologize for not being a teenager anymore >.<
Basically, I've been in a serious relationship for 4 years, since i was halfway through 16.
Prior to this relationship, I was with a man who raped and emotionally abused me. Before that, i was with a girl who emotionally screwed me, and was openly attracted to and had relationships with both sexes.
My current partner and I split for a few months 2 or 3 years ago, during which i had a brief relationship with a guy and much "experimentation" with women.

My life is very different now, i have had no friends or social life whatsoever since I moved to live with my boyfriend over a year ago. All i have is him and work, him and work. I now live in a tiny, rich, stuck-up town that shuns me. Recently things don't feel right. I don't feel "love" for him like i used to, he helped me and saved me from awful things that were happening, and i promised him my life. He's just... not enough. I feel like we're on completely different levels, i wish i could get away from him. But he loves me and i could never hurt him. He left me and i begged him to take me back, I wish I hadn't now.

Had to explain my situation, sorry it's so long xD ANYWAY the point is;

All i'm thinking about is women. i'm not attracted to his body, i want a WOMAN! Or is it just that I want a woman's intellect and i'm sick of only having someone I have to dumb myself down for. I've only ever wanted to please everyone else, but i want my turn :( I should be having the best time of my life now, not being stuck and depressed.

If i break up with him, I will have nowhere to live and no money. We are supposed to be moving soon.

OH GOD.

Help :( I don't have anyone to talk to, gimme some advice :whoops:

I'm sorry this post is so long, rant over :D sorry if it's not in the right place.

Thanks :D

[Hermes96]

if you want more friends try joinging a local sports club

[Miserabilia]

Im here to talk to always :)
Anyway, if you are in all ways more attracted to girls then guys, why not just brake that barrier and accept you are bi/lesbian?

[Harry Smith]

Hey, firstly the most important thing to do is to take your mind. In situations like this your mind can change very quickly and you don't want to be making any rash decisions. We've all had bad relationships in our life and the fact that he helped you through that is great but you need to be selfish about things like this. Try and give it a week, that's my best advice. You'll be amazed at how much can change.

If not write a list of the pro's and con's about him, it's brutal but it will really help you work out what is workable, I mean everyone has things they dislike about there partner but there are some things which can important aspects such as if you have different plans for the future.

Lastly if you do need to leave don't rush out of it, I know the pain of sticking around can be tough but sit down with him and see if you can work it out because the last thing you want is to be completely homeless so see if you can either stay in the current house for a couple of days or if you have any friends who could help out. Just don't block him out if you do leave him, try and explain the situation because if he does love you then he'll want what is best for you