I did it!

[Magenta]

Today was my last day of school and there is an annual tradition that we go out to this massive park and kinda have something like a giant party with the senior students. Well, I wore a sleeveless dress. Guys, I actually did it. I wore my arms bare in front of my entire grade and more. 65 days free and I covered a few scars in make up but I am so proud of myself. I wore a short over my dress at school around teachers and such but after school I took it off. I am so excited. And this isn't just the first time since I started severely self-harming. I've had very bad skin and acne problems since I was seven years old. Like, really severe. I haven't worn a tank top in eleven years. Today I showed off my skin and I was okay! One person asked about a scar and I just said don't ask and he let it go. One girl even came up to me and asked if I'd judge her for doing something a bit weird and I said no so she asked for my arm then kissed the scars on my arms. I nearly burst into tears, I was so happy that I wasn't being judged. It was the single nicest thing anyone has ever done for me and she just sorta shrugged it off like it was nothing. I sorta knew her but not very well. I was so nervous prior to that too and she made me feel like I'd just done the bravest thing in the world. I know a lot of people think of that as a super romantic gesture or something but I feel like it meant more because it wasn't. It was just friendly and congratulatory and it meant so much.

Next week is prom and I'm going in a sleeveless dress and I'm so happy I can do this. I still can't wear something sleeveless around family, it's a bit too embarrassing and shameful but I was so afraid of teenagers being teenagers and treating me like shit for my scars. So I am actually trying not to cry -- I've been so self-conscious for so long that just being able to... and being able to see the little glances people make at my arms and not get really anxious about them... Yeah. I thought I'd say that.

[Miri]

Today was my last day of school and there is an annual tradition that we go out to this massive park and kinda have something like a giant party with the senior students. Well, I wore a sleeveless dress. Guys, I actually did it. I wore my arms bare in front of my entire grade and more. 65 days free and I covered a few scars in make up but I am so proud of myself. I wore a short over my dress at school around teachers and such but after school I took it off. I am so excited. And this isn't just the first time since I started severely self-harming. I've had very bad skin and acne problems since I was seven years old. Like, really severe. I haven't worn a tank top in eleven years. Today I showed off my skin and I was okay! One person asked about a scar and I just said don't ask and he let it go. One girl even came up to me and asked if I'd judge her for doing something a bit weird and I said no so she asked for my arm then kissed the scars on my arms. I nearly burst into tears, I was so happy that I wasn't being judged. It was the single nicest thing anyone has ever done for me and she just sorta shrugged it off like it was nothing. I sorta knew her but not very well. I was so nervous prior to that too and she made me feel like I'd just done the bravest thing in the world. I know a lot of people think of that as a super romantic gesture or something but I feel like it meant more because it wasn't. It was just friendly and congratulatory and it meant so much.

Next week is prom and I'm going in a sleeveless dress and I'm so happy I can do this. I still can't wear something sleeveless around family, it's a bit too embarrassing and shameful but I was so afraid of teenagers being teenagers and treating me like shit for my scars. So I am actually trying not to cry -- I've been so self-conscious for so long that just being able to... and being able to see the little glances people make at my arms and not get really anxious about them... Yeah. I thought I'd say that.

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you :)

I hope you have an amazing summer, full of more of this kind of happiness.

[gotstyle]

That good and nice that people where kind

[Mortal Coil]

JO! I'm so proud of you!!! Congratulations :D

[Princess Ariel]

I saws and I wasnd so paorud ofa yoau!

[germangirl]

I have a smile in my face after reading this because, I'm just happy for you! Congratulations :)

[Altiier]

Thats awesome! Congratulations!! :D

[Conqueror of Hearts]

I don't even know you and I'm soo happy for you and proud as if you're my friend. I've read your post a couple of times because it makes me happy. Soo glad you did it. -xx

[Magenta]

Ahh, thanks guys. I'm going to prom tonight in another sleeveless dress~ I mean there will be some pretty dim lighting but after last week and being out in broad daylight, it'll go well, I think.

[Conqueror of Hearts]

Well good luck, enjoy yourself and have a wonderful time <3

[joshM1996]

im really happy for you, i can usually go sleeveless now too, although theyre still visible at times, its a great feeling going sleeveless after quitting

[Starscream]

That must be such a great feeling, congratulations!

[KimuraWannabe116]

Good job!

[SevenHells]

Congratulations, that's fantastic news!