I want to jump in front of a car

[Piachu]

Lately I've been obsessed with the thought of being in a hospital. I just feel like I'd be a lot more comfortable being in a hospital with broken bones than at home being healthy? I just feel an urge to hurt myself, and be in pain. I don't know why I'm thinking like this, could someone possibly help? I'm getting a bit worried I might just jump in front of a bus soon...

[Miserabilia]

It depends... Maybe you are in a way depressed about your life, and want if to change even if it is for the bad, maybe you like the thought and feeling of pain, maybe you like the negative attention of pain. I suggest you read http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/M%C3%BCnchausen_syndrome_by_proxy and see if it matches you

[AustinKGB]

Do you not find much attention at home? The allure of being in a hospital could be the attention you are receiving or the freedom from most other responsibilities or tasks. Maybe some details about your family or current situation would be helpful for us to identify possible problems.

Just please don't step in front of a car. While you may get better, certain parts of your body might not, (ex. brain, ligaments, nerves etc!).

[FantaSauce]

Do you not find much attention at home? The allure of being in a hospital could be the attention you are receiving or the freedom from most other responsibilities or tasks. Maybe some details about your family or current situation would be helpful for us to identify possible problems.

Just please don't step in front of a car. While you may get better, certain parts of your body might not, (ex. brain, ligaments, nerves etc!).

Certain parts might not get better, Like the person driving the car.

Throwing yourself in the way of a moving vehicle is just a terrible thing to do not only to cause harm to yourself but to cause immense stress on the owner. Imagine someone stepped out in front of your car and you killed them. That would stay with you for the rest of your life.

[Charlie48]

don't do that cos you'll get whoever is driving the car/bus in trouble not to mention giving them a load of undeserved guilt.

[Miserabilia]

don't do that cos you'll get whoever is driving the car/bus in trouble not to mention giving them a load of undeserved guilt.

not to mention if you throw yourself under a car you will probably die -_-

[Piachu]

thank you all guys, I don't really have any problems at home that I know of. I suffer from social anxiety, so being around my family is fine by me, I just hate being around classmates and having to deal with social situations in general. I used to cut myself until my mum found out, and I haven't cut in about two months, and I guess I kinda miss the pain? I do feel the need to be unhappy or in pain, and I'm not sure why. I used to ho to a psychologist, but she had yo quit her job so I might possibly get a new one, and I'll tell her/him about these problems. :) thank you guys though