So this is it...

[Cold_Tactics]

I'm just about done trying. I really am. My name is... I'm afraid to say really anything about me. I'm really paranoid, I think someone I know will search my name and see this. It is Connor. I'm 15, almost 16. I've been "bottling up" or otherwise suppressing my emotions for about 3 years, I've went through a lot of emotional trauma as well. Moving Schools, losing family members, losing friends... I was a new student at my school this year for sophomore year. I pushed away everyone that tried to be my friend due to me thinking I wasn't good enough. Being gay doesn't help. I grew up with people that made fun of gays, it took me years to finally accept that that is who I am and stuff. I've sat alone all year at lunch, but I'm so good at lying about what and how I feel that people assume I have friends... That I have a life. I can't look at myself in the mirror anymore. I eat poorly, as in rarely. I'm not overweight or anything. I think about suicide every other day. I haven't cut myself or enacted any other physical harm upon myself. But I just want an end to this. I go through School looking down, feeling worthless. People don't seem to notice or even care. I'm all alone. This is the first time I've ever posted my problems online so...

[EliraLupa]

Hey, sounds like you've had a hard time of things. First of all, you don't need to be afraid of saying anything on here, the community is amazing and so supportive. I know what it means to hide your feelings and to put on a happy face so that people don't notice how much it hurts inside. I'll say this ... in all of the whole human race, there is no one like you and there is no need to be afraid or ashamed of who you are. If anyone ever says anything against you , they are not worth a moment's thought. I know its easy for me to sit here and gush a load of advice but you have to believe me, you are worth so much and there are and will be people out there who love you for exactly who you are. You just need to have the same faith in yourself. You are never alone :) xx

[Fiction]

The other day I found out a guy at my college killed himself. You're probably wondering why I told you that? Well the night after I found out I sat there and cried thinking about this boy, feeling like I should have been able to help him somehow. I'd never even spoken to this boy, I'd just seen him around. The point I'm trying to make is that people find it difficult to show they care but there are lots of people out there who care, even those that don't really know you. I remember hearing things about everyone caring when I was in your position, depressed, alone and suicidal and I didn't believe what people said. It's only the last few days I've realised the worth of my life, and I regret attempting to take my life like I have done twice before, what if I'd managed?

I know things seem difficult now but nothing is forever. You'll get older and you'll leave school and you'll leave home. Things are going to be changing a lot in the next few years of your life and eventually all the things that are causing your depression now will be gone. I know it's hard to think of the future, but it comes sooner than you think.

[Samtheman102]

Be strong. Get proffesional help if you need to. Confide in the ones you love. I am sorry about your pain, bro.

[LouBerry]

Hey, you are NOT worthless. You are an amazing, strong, beautiful human being. Don't be so hard on yourself. Dear, we all love you, we all care about you. (:

[The-Chosen-Hero]

Connor you are not worthless. I know moving into a new school can be hard but if you keep on sweating all the minor details how can you ever move on. Meet some people and don't feel like your not good enough. We are all not perfect at all not even close. So what if you are gay. If people can't see you for you because of that then obviously they are not good enough for you. Don't be so hard on yourself dude chin up. If you need someone to talk I'll be here