My Depressing Life..

[Melodic]

Okay well I usually tend to just joke around on here, and not really post much about my personal life. But, now I kinda need some advice...


I've had depression since I was around five. But it didn't really affect me much till last year. That was when my mom and dad decided to split. I can say, I am usually the type that kind of just goes with things. And I acted like I didn't care. But then they started talking bad about each other, being jerks. And I found out stuff about my dad that made me never to trust him again. Then my ex-best friend was hurting me and criticizing to try to make me insecure. Then I had to break up with my boyfriend which was really sad for me. Then my mom's best friend moved in and made my life hell. And then by the time summer was over, I had school again. So I went to school and people could honestly tell I was depressed and insecure. They used everything I did to hurt me. When I was hanging out with my best friend (who's a guy) we were apparently having sex, and then I started being called fat, ugly, a hooker, slut. The slut one was the worse. And I pretty much hid either in the bathroom or the library when I wasn't in class and could have teachers to stop it. My mom called the principal, and they said they would do something. And it stopped for maybe a month. Then people did the same thing. I started failing my classes, and I pretty much barely went to school. Then by second semester, I had a lot to look forward to with a few music performances, and a musical. And the mean roomate left. Then EVEN more happened. There was a huge riot at our school, and I got scared to even go. My best friend got caught doing stuff in the school restroom, which was even worse to deal with. By then I decided to just leave my school in general. Then my mom got depressed and tried to commit suicide. I caught her trying to attempt it and called somebody to take her in. Then my mom's friend punched her in the face after she defended me because he was insulting me. Then I got depressed and lonely and tried to commit suicide. And now I don't know what to do anymore. I feel really depressed from everything, and I never knew this much could happen to me. My mom has been threatning me that either I need to stop being depressed or I can live somewhere else. I just don't know what to do anymore. :(

[carli]

I am so so sooo sorry that you've had to deal with so much. As much as I wish I could just type some long message with advice that would make everything better, I cannot. I am not a professional, and I am in no position to tell you what I think is best for you. I can say, as cheesy as it sounds, that things get better eventually. In the meantime, you need to help yourself, and love yourself all the same. Please never sell yourself short. Never give up.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255

[MoonMan]

Get help immediately. The longer you wait, the longer it eats away at you. There's also something I don't understand, were you not referred to a therapist or put on medication after you attempted suicide? Did they just let you walk out of the hospital, or what? Also, with the upmost respect to both you and your mother, anyone who tells a an actual depressed person to "stop being depressed" has no fucking clue what depression is in the first place. Depression is a disease, not just a state of mind or a mood swing, with biological factors as well. Like most other diseases, it is treatable and even curable. If no one else wants to help you, help yourself. Tell your school counselor and I guarantee your mother will get involved afterwards.

[Abgail 16]

So much of what you talk about resonates with me but I have been very lucky with parents that understand my depression.
How your mom can threaten you and say you have got to “stop being depressed” shows she has no real understanding of the illness.

As has already been mentioned,please seek help,I was offered medication and counseling and refused,eventually went back to the Docs and more or less begged for help and got it,I have been free from depression for about two years now but it does leave it’s scars and I know it may return but I know the warning signs and when to seek help.

Please get help.

Abi,


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[Goonch97]

You should find some help, the longer you dwell in it, the more depressed you will be

[gotstyle]

I feel sorry for you and that means a lot since I'm the kind of guy that would do this to someone but really only to people that cheat on girls talk shiz to my friends just db in general

[Samtheman102]

I'm so sorry about this. THings will get better, I promise.

[Fanta_Lover44]

Hey, looks like you've had some bad times, get help doesnt matter who it is, close friend,family, just get help. Sorry you had to put up with this. Things will get better soon, and you'll be smiling once again :D

[The-Chosen-Hero]

I a sorry to hear your ex-bestfriend was putting you down. That is inexcusable for anyone even a ex-bestfriend to do. I recommend you stay away from this person since he/she making you insecure and sad. Now about your mom best friend. Either stay away from her/him or ask her/him politely to stop making your life hell. Talk to your mom about it. If you need to, call the cops or get a restraining order. The restraining order would probably be the best bet after calling the cops once his/her reactions become violent again.

Madie Just know that you know the truth behind every lie that has been told against you. I know kids can be cruel and it is usually for multiple reasons. Just ignore them and don't let their insults get to you. If you must do tell a teacher or just give to them straight.

Now about being depressed. Just know that with every storm the sun comes back up. Sure life has it ups and downs just stay strong. Don't let the bullcrap of today or tomorrow or the day after that convince you that you're not pretty. You are beautiful even if the world denies it. Besides don't worry to much and be worried about the beauty that comes from inside. The lasting charm of a gentle and loving spirit is worth more then good looks any day and anywhere.

If you need anyone to talk to i am here

[Sweet Smart Smexi]

I can understand what you're going through. I have been since the age of 4 and it's too late for me to do anything. But it's not for you!!!! Even VM me and i will PM you straight away to talk.

Now about this name teasing. Read this quote: Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me. A word is a word. It has NO meaning. Someone may call you (no offence) fat, ugly, hooker, slut but what is the reason that word came out of their mouth. Think positive thoughts.

Lets move on. Comitting suicide sounds like the best option. Trust me, I've considered and done it. But why should we do it? Because we're depressed? Just please don't try it again, it doesn't help.

Also, find someone to talk to about it. I am now condidering a counselor. Get one and say that whatever you say here, does not get told to anyone else. Make sense?

I hope Louis comes and whisks you away!

All the best wishes,

Lola A.

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