just once more..

[ArtistInNeed]

..i would like to feel the razor scream across my skin...

i swore to him i wouldnt ever again, i swore. its so difficult to officially give it up tho, its been with me for years and to just all of a sudden stop..thats...almost impossible. is there anything i can do? anything just to make the urge go away forever. he took my blades and i got mad at him, i remember it so faintly how angry i got, and yet, i never told him how mad i actually did get. i tried stealing them back, but i knew it was wrong so i stopped myself from taking them. I dont want to hurt him, but i really "need" this right now.. *sigh*..

[byee]

No, you don't 'need' this, it is bad for you! You are accustomed to it, it's a very bad habit, but you certainly don't 'Need' this. Don't confuse the false comfort of a habit with actually 'Needing' it. You don't.

What you might 'Need' is to find an alternative way to cope with stress. There's a real loss now that you're not cutting because you haven't found another way to cope. It's that hole that you're noticing. You're stressed, and you can't reach into yourself anymore and pull out the cutting as a way of coping.

Find another HEALTHY way to cope. It takes a while to gradually get used to new behaviors, but the sooner you do that, the sooner you'll fill that hole.

Until then, cutting is like an addiction. You'll jones for it a lot, you'll struggle with it a lot. But you won't give in if you have lots of support, will power, and are practicing other ways of coping.

Right now, you're having a bad day. It'll pass.

[ArtistInNeed]

i stole an xacto knife from my art teacher..and i told my boyfriend..i plan on cutting tonight..he is very upset with me..

[ermno]

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