Help me feel light.

[Aerial Slash]

Ok I do nothing but play video games to fell good about myself(also jacking my thing). My mom and dad fight all the time... My siblings are better then me(even my younger one's)

Everyone loves my big brother... He has friends,Women ECT.

I got kicked out of school for 5 mouths(for something I did not do!) I got my big black dumb-ass back to school to find out I don't know shit.... Girls never talk to me... I suck at a lot of things.... And no one cares about my feelings,and I'm ugly and have no friends. Thats always nice.... I hate my life. I mean people have worse... but for a normal teen I have it bad. I feel like my heart is empty... I once cut my arm tell it was bleeding..And I have not yet had one girlfriend.(not even on the web) And I keep thinking about killing myself. I need some help.

And when I was 13 I've been to 7 school dances and no one even notice I was there besides my big brother(I love him guys) and I walked into the boys bathroom and cryed for 48 minutes.

P.S. sorry if it was hard to read.... I'm dumb as shit.

[Hybridoxidation]

Well, why not make an effort then? Sorry, but feeling sorry for yourself won't change jack. Study harder, don't aim for right now, aim for the future. There's a girl out there for you, but let's focus on studying right now rather than looking for women aye? And I haven't had a girlfriend yet, i have online, but that's because.. idk the internet is screwy like that.

Think of the other people in the world, who are going hungry, can't afford food, don't have family who are taking care of them. Think of girls who were raped and brutally killed. Think of ... just more unfortunate people. Don't be so down because of something like that, it's just too .. selfish. You can do something about that. Study harder, don't give up.

yeah idk what else to say :I

[Aerial Slash]

Well, why not make an effort then? Sorry, but feeling sorry for yourself won't change jack. Study harder, don't aim for right now, aim for the future. There's a girl out there for you, but let's focus on studying right now rather than looking for women aye? And I haven't had a girlfriend yet, i have online, but that's because.. idk the internet is screwy like that.

Think of the other people in the world, who are going hungry, can't afford food, don't have family who are taking care of them. Think of girls who were raped and brutally killed. Think of ... just more unfortunate people. Don't be so down because of something like that, it's just too .. selfish. You can do something about that. Study harder, don't give up.

yeah idk what else to say :I

hhhmmm ): fucking shit fine.... Well missing 4 to 5 and a half mouths of school will fuck you up... And in the mental classes.... bye social life. But ok.

[Extreme586]

First of all, one of the most important things you need to understand before you can start to feel better is your attitude towards yourself. Nobody notices you or wants to be around you because you don't even want to be around yourself! You have to find value in yourself before you can truly move forward and be happy.

I've noticed in my depression that the people who are the happiest are the one's whos happiness doesn't depend on the people who they are around. They find their own way of being themselves and people naturally follow them because they aren't affected by how other people think of them.

You will never be happy until you find happiness in yourself and learn to love yourself first. That's the best advice I can give.