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HeartCoreHannah
June 6th, 2013, 11:39 PM
My self harm is something that I’m a shamed of. It has single handedly almost ruined my life. I don’t tell people. I cover my body so no one can see. I cringe if someone tries to touch me because I’m afraid you can feel my scars through my clothes. It has kept me from being in multiple relationships. I’ve lost friends over it. My body is destroyed. I can’t wear cute short sleeved tops or short shorts. I’ve stained my blankets, towels, wash cloths, my actual bed, and good clothes with blood. I don’t look in the mirror and if I do, I almost always cry. My scars are not only mentally painful, but physically as well. I get sharp pains in them regularly. They itch, so I scratch, which makes them dry and they bleed. I feel like a failure, so I cut more. I’m terrified to get a job because summer is here and if I wear long sleeves every day they’ll think I’m crazy and if I don’t, I’ll be judged. I spend 99% of my time alone in my room because its easier than going out and having to explain. I try to tell myself I’m not defined by my scars, but I am.
So the next time you see someone with cuts, scars, burns, ect. and you curl your nose, roll your eyes, stare, make your comments, or pass your judgements, DON'T. You’re not any better than someone with visible self inflicted injuries. If anything they're better than you for having the courage to go out and have their scars, ect. showing. We’re all addicted to something that takes the pain away.
Nobody wants to self harm. Stop being ignorant, stop passing judgement, and learn to have a little compassion.
Rayquaza
June 8th, 2013, 12:01 PM
Today was really awks because one of my friends asked me "I'm not sure if this is personal but what's with all those scars on your arm?"
Perhaps he asked because he had Asperger and couldn't tell how personal it was, but one of my adult mentors was there, and I noticed that after I told them about "my cat having her birthday and scratching me near water", he still looked at them with a really like, curious look. He's one of those people that will ring parents if there's something wrong and not keep quiet, but I think my parents are niieve enough to think it actually was our cat.
I really shouldn't have taken my jumper off, but we were in the Challenge Zone (which I love) and I was getting too hot and dehydrating, so I had to.
muffin with a knife
June 16th, 2013, 11:08 AM
People always ask what happened to my hands. I never actually tell them anything. I just say 'Lots of things'. They look at me like I'm some sort of monster.
Fanta_Lover44
June 16th, 2013, 12:35 PM
I just hide them... I do it on the legs as its really easy to hide, that way i dont get asked about it, i regret doing it on my arm as when pee came..... Surprised the teacher didnt ask actaully.........
MoonMan
June 16th, 2013, 04:11 PM
Whoever curls their nose at someone who self harms usually knows nothing about the underlying causes to self harm anyways (I highly doubt they would pass judgement in such a way if they did in fact know) so their opinion on it shouldn't count for much.
tay4
June 17th, 2013, 12:32 AM
This is exactly me, except I work and I'm a cheerleader who is expected to be preppy and happy.. My blanket and pillow are actaully stained with blood right now. And when people ask me what the cuts are I lie and say my cat scratched me.
lost.girl
June 17th, 2013, 03:29 PM
I cut on my right breast. I am a competitive swimmer so i can't really do it on my arms or legs. Also i like the beach so i cant do it on my stomach. its really hard though because my razor is REALLY sharp so the second i press down at all it bleeds a lot and theres a lot of important stuff there so i get scared...
Conqueror of Hearts
June 18th, 2013, 05:35 AM
I know that it is very hard to stop SH, but it seems like doing it makes you feel even more worse, and it is not just a way to take away the pain now it also gives you much bigger pain later. No matter how hard it is or scary it sounds please try to face things that make you SH. I am also ashamed of my scars,even though I have just a few of them, but I always tend to hide them, but one day you will get out of that mess and that day you should be proud because you overcame that. I don't have any advice to give you on how to hind them, my only advice is to stop, step by step, little by little...i dont know why you cut but whatever the reason is you can fix it, believe me. If you can't do it yourself tell someone, get armed and be a victor. Take care, -xx
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