Being Single Is REALLY Starting To Make Me Depressed

[TaylrJ]

I am a 15 year old guy that's bi.. And right now I am really starting to become depressed. It's all been happening for the past few days really. I know exactly why, but it's that one thing that weighs EVERYTHING else down. It's actually something tiny, and it's because these two boys I know of, are in a relationship with each other. The reason this has a huge effect on me is because NOBODY else I know of (in my whole school, even district) is gay or bi. Nobody even knew that these two people were gay. So on facebook, they came out and announced that they were dating. One of those guys goes to my school and he's made fun of all the time. Nobody knew about it then, but it was because he wore Toms and had extremely greasy hair and buck teeth, so everybody else constantly talked about him for being different. I kinda had a feeling he was gay, but never knew he would end up actually dating another boy.

I don't know, it's just for the past 2 years I have been trying so hard to be with someone, I have put SO MUCH EFFORT into being with boys it's unbelievable. And this guy, all he does is message him on facebook being like "Hey, I am gay, what's up?" I mean... That was BASICALLY how it went. The other guy is cute too, VERY, I've never met him, but when I first friended him I was really hoping he was gay but then was like "nahhh, he's probably straight like everybody else". And what do ya know?! He's posting statuses about how he's gay now. Even worse, I am starting to develop feeling for him, and I've NEVER. EVEN. MET HIM... fml.

I don't think it's fair honestly. I see EVERYBODY around me dating people. Do I just not deserve someone? AT ALL?! I mean I put so much effort into looking good, being extremely nice, and I try to give myself amazing qualities so I can be attractive but yet I am still single. WHY?! I am good-looking, VERY fun to be around, and would be a great boyfriend.. But yet I am single. I have gone through soo much because of other boys I've fallen for. Go through my posts, extreme depression, jealousy, anxiety, love sickness, and even suicide. I truly believe that someone more amazing than I can imagine will come into my life, one day, but at the same time I think I will always be single... I WANT to just have my first kiss already, or hold someone in my arms, I don't know. I really just wanna be happy with another person is all. I am lonely. Now seeing these two boys being in love, and do everything together... It makes me so sad. Can you please help me? Thanks.

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I feel the same way, but think positively. Eventually you'll find the perfect person for you, and it'll make all of the heartbreaj and pain worthwhile.

[Miri]

Good guys are hard to find, especially in high school, when people are so afraid of being judged. Do the other people you know at your school know that you're bi? If they did, you may have a better chance of finding someone, but then again, I can understand why you wouldn't want everyone to know if that's your choice.

I understand your position, where you feel that you need to try so hard to get people to like you, but no one seems interested. Don't let that make you depressed, even though I know being single is lonely, the right guy will come along soon for you :)

[Hybridoxidation]

We all feel that way brother. I have other ways to keep myself busy though, like my xbox (my precious precious xbox) reading, writing, etc. I used to like this girl for 4 years, until she got taken just last month. It was a heartbreak really, but I knew I was never going to have her. Somehow that made me stronger, and i'm not going to look for any girl until I move to college, since all the girls here aren't up to my standards xD Just cheer up, you'll find someone.