A year and four months

[StayBeautiful33]

So, I have been a year and four months self harm free and I just want to say to all the others don't give up and don't lose faith. It's possible although I never would have imagined that a year and four months ago. But a lot has happened in my life in this extremely slow year and four months. My parents are having severe marital problems, my pap died, my "gram" died, both of our dogs have died and my mom is just as about as suicidal as I am if not more and I find myself having more and more trouble staying clean I guess you could say. A year ago I had tossed my razor in hopes of recovering but when my pap first got sick I found one in his house one night while walking his dog. I took it unsure if I was ever going to use it. It makes me feel better knowing I have it, I don't know safe more stable than I've ever been. I know that's messed up but I just cant get rid of this one not now not when my life is spiraling apart.:confused::(

[Gazmo]

congratulations on staying clean, ive been clan for about 6 months now :) i was the sme, i kept my bladeuntil a few months ago, where mum found it and threw it away, i was so scared to be without it as a back up, but im much better now :) just get rid of it

[StayBeautiful33]

Thank you :) Congrats on staying clean yourself:) I don't know if I'm ready to get rid of it, the last one I disposed of I wasn't ready to but I
did it because my therapist wanted me too.

[LouBerry]

Congratulations! That's quite an accomplishment. (: Keep it up!

[Miserabilia]

congratz!

[StayBeautiful33]

Thank you!

[AmuraVasendiu]

This awesome, and really inspiring to the rest of us out there. I've been 'clean' (funny, I've never heard it expressed like that) for fifty-one days as of today, and I still have times I want to. Stories like these always make me smile. I look forward to the day I can throw mine away and live my life again without this haunting me. Good job!