Why cant I learn by my mistakes

[MaguireUk]

Everytime somethings going well in my life it never lasts, I always seem to find away to mess it up, lose someone I love, just get stressed out by anything said or done to me I just keep it bottled up then always the smallest thing happens and I explode and lose all I have. Im then started again and again nothing ever changes. Today was the worst of all im a total idiot and im still lay here at 2am thinking why am I still here wouldnt everyone be happier without me, so I stop making them sad and upset just because I cant handle my feelings whats the point anymore

[Extreme586]

Don't feel bad dude, I'm going through a lot of the same things right now. Suicide has been on my mind lately but it won't change anything. Think about it this way, do you really want to be observing how life goes on after you die and not be able to change a thing? I always think about the people I care about, whether they care about me or not, and realize that I couldn't stand watching from the sidelines. Even if I sort of do that now, I can speak and talk when I want to, and say things to them, etc.
Idk really what to tell you right now, because saying shit like "it gets better" isn't really my thing. Maybe just pm me because the whole ruining relationships I have with people is kind of my thing. It would be nice to talk to someone who feels the same way.

[Cece14]

Kepp on going, Dont slow down, carry on, let it all out

[confusedteen33]

I know it's hard man, I get the same feelings all the time. Just find that one reason that u need to be here. And if you can't think of one, I'll give you one. Because your a great guy, and your friends and family love you. I've always enjoyed talking to you on here, so if that isn't a good enough reason, then know I love ya man, I'm here for you

[Samtheman102]

Keep calm and carry on, as Queen Elizabeth said. Remember that you are not alone in this battle of depression, and others feel this way too.