I want to die...

[Jman437]

I'm done with this shit! I'm sick and tired of my fucking stupid meaningless life!! My grades suck, I have no friends, my family doesn't really care about me, I'll never amount to much, I can't do anything right. If I die, I'll make no difference, I'm just another stupid pathetic little human being who is living by obligation.

[mattbenn08]

Never end your own life, you might just be having a rough time but it'll only get better! Talk to someone about it, there's always people for you to talk to in situations like this! You'll make friends soon if you try to. Just don't do anything stupid. You can work at your grades. Your family does care about you but if you think about it if you end your life it will tear their world apart. If you die it'll make a lot of difference to hundreds of people!

[Jman437]

Never end your own life, you might just be having a rough time but it'll only get better! Talk to someone about it, there's always people for you to talk to in situations like this! You'll make friends soon if you try to. Just don't do anything stupid. You can work at your grades. Your family does care about you but if you think about it if you end your life it will tear their world apart. If you die it'll make a lot of difference to hundreds of people!

It will get better? MY LIFE IS FUCKING RUINED!!! My grades are shit and it's too late to work on them and are not enough to go to college! My PARENTS, the ONLY PEOPLE I CAN TALK TO, don't fucking understand my situation!!! All the people I talk to are always trying to bring me down, how can I make friends? If I die, my family WON'T MISS ME, NOT EVEN A LITTLE BIT, because they're just as shitty as my classmates!!! I'm SICK AND TIRED of living! My grades are shit, I'm lonely as a dog, I'm a fucking dumbass, no one will ever miss me! Besides, I've been looking up to kill myself since I was 6, it's the only thing I look up to!

[mattbenn08]

Just calm down? I know it might seem tough but trust me people will miss you! You can make friends online that live near you? You can make friends with almost anyone online! Do something good and exciting in your life to make it fun and try setting yourself goals to work towards so you can be proud of yourself when you achieve it.

[Jman437]

Just calm down? I know it might seem tough but trust me people will miss you! You can make friends online that live near you? You can make friends with almost anyone online! Do something good and exciting in your life to make it fun and try setting yourself goals to work towards so you can be proud of yourself when you achieve it.

I've already set my goals: get to college. I failed.
Suicide-1 worthless life-0
People will NOT miss a useless piece of shit. That's what I am.
Suicide-2 worthless life-0
Friends online are useless because I don't spend my life online.
Suicide-3 worthless life-0

You see, I have more reasons to die then to live. I will not kill myself though, I'll wait until finals, then when I fail, I'll end my life...

[mattbenn08]

If you don't spend anytime online then there must be groups where people like you can get help

[Jman437]

If you don't spend anytime online then there must be groups where people like you can get help

I don't have ANYTHING, don't you understand? Nobody likes me, no one cares about me. I may as well die, who gives a fuck?

[mattbenn08]

People will still care!

[Jman437]

People will still care!

They won't, trust me, and even if they do, 2 or 3 days later I will be forgotten for good.

[Dark Zodiac]

Do you think it'll be fun for your parents to put you in the ground? Do you honestly think they'll forget that? They will blame themselves for how you die. My dad killed himself and I blame myself ever fucking day. It's just selfish, man. Just pm me or something. I know how you're feeling. Please.

[MoonMan]

Before anyone can help you, you need to help yourself. There are other things you can do besides college, if you truly believe no one will miss you then you're an idiot. Assuming you live with your parents, if they didn't care then they would've given you up a long time ago. They care enough to have taken care of you, and even the shittiest of parents (your's don't sound that bad) would be affected by the death of a child. There are people in the world who are starving and have no chance at life, and you're going to off yourself because you're having hard times in high school (which almost everyone goes through). Stop being so fucking ungrateful and pessimistic, grow a fucking backbone for god's sake. The reason you're unhappy is because you have a negative outlook on life, maybe school isn't for you? How do you know you won't be happy with a simple job?

[Jman437]

Before anyone can help you, you need to help yourself. There are other things you can do besides college, if you truly believe no one will miss you then you're an idiot. Assuming you live with your parents, if they didn't care then they would've given you up a long time ago. They care enough to have taken care of you, and even the shittiest of parents (your's don't sound that bad) would be affected by the death of a child. There are people in the world who are starving and have no chance at life, and you're going to off yourself because you're having hard times in high school (which almost everyone goes through). Stop being so fucking ungrateful and pessimistic, grow a fucking backbone for god's sake. The reason you're unhappy is because you have a negative outlook on life, maybe school isn't for you? How do you know you won't be happy with a simple job?

School isn't for me? Then what the fuck am I doing here? I'm not good neither at school nor at relationships!! I'm fucking USELESS! I would be happy with a simple job if I were an idiot, which I am but not to that extent. What things can I do besides college which gives me the opportunity to win a reasonable amount of money? Plus, if I don't get to college, I'll be the black sheep in my family, okay? Besides, college offers WAAAY more opportunities of well-paid jobs than its alternatives. How can I have a positive outlook on life when everything is turning to shit and things never go my way?

[MoonMan]

School isn't for me? Then what the fuck am I doing here? I'm not good neither at school nor at relationships!! I'm fucking USELESS! I would be happy with a simple job if I were an idiot, which I am but not to that extent. What things can I do besides college which gives me the opportunity to win a reasonable amount of money? Plus, if I don't get to college, I'll be the black sheep in my family, okay? Besides, college offers WAAAY more opportunities of well-paid jobs than its alternatives. How can I have a positive outlook on life when everything is turning to shit and things never go my way?

Because you're acting like a massive pussy. Who gives a fuck if you're the black sheep in your family. Everything is turning to shit because you let everything get you down, you crumble with every little hardship that comes your way. Like I said: if you truly tried your best at school and ended up failing, what more can you do? As far as jobs go, i would suggest joining the marines. They'll teach you loyalty, determination, the pay is decent, you could actually be productive and make a difference, they'll pay for your college tuition, and you essentially don't care whether you live or die so why not? I say at least get some more life experience before you decide there is absolutely nothing for you, until then, grow some fucking balls. There are people who have it way worse than you on a daily basis. Struggle and hardship build character, and you'll find yourself becoming a better man for having overcome them and happiness will be that much more sweeter should you obtain it.

[TonyBlack]

I wasn't going to comment on your post because I have had a friend who died last year, in what has been claimed was an accident, but I don't agree with that. And it is not something I have liked to talk about, because I still feel guilty that I wasn't able to do anything to stop it from happening. But here it goes:

He was 15, he had broken up with his girlfriend the week before. Actually she had broken up with him in a very humiliating way, in front of other friends, and insulted him by telling him how useless she thought he was, how she thought she had wasted too much of her time, a bunch of other things that I just...

Anyway, for the week that led up to his accident, I was the only one who could talk to him. He didn't want to talk with anyone else because of what had happened. I tried to get him to understand the idea that everything changes. I was 9 when my parents divorced, and had a lot of trouble dealing with that event. I had stopped talking to my dad for a whole year because I was so pissed off at him for leaving. Today, I won't say things are great, but I know that I can count on my dad, and I love him for that.

Up to that time I had dated and broken up with two girls, one I dated from 13 to 14, and it really hurt when it ended. I was lucky enough to find my second girlfriend the day after that break-up, and that really helped minimize the pain of losing the first. But that relationship ended after only a few months. I met my current girlfriend about a month later, and we're still together.

There were a bunch of other examples that I tried to get him to understand to accept the idea that life is always changing, and up and downs are just a part of the experience. And I did not give up on him. No matter what time he called, or what he wanted to talk about, I would always listen to him, because I could see how bad his mood was getting, and I was really afraid of what he was thinking of doing.

Well, to wrap up, he went out with some other friends, they got drunk, he tried to drive home, was speeding, and slammed his car into the back of a parked tractor-trailer truck, and was killed instantly. The reason I believe that it was not an accident is because I had been drunk with him before, and we both knew better than to try and drive home, and walked home at night for at least seven miles. It was the greatest time I had spent with him, so I know he knew better than to try and drive drunk.

I still miss him to this day.

Life changes. If you suck in school, look at joining the military. If you don't want to go to war, join the Navy or the Air Force. If you want to try to make it into college, you can go to community college to make up what you need to to transfer to a university. Finding something that matters to you is what you need to focus on. But giving up just isn't an option you should consider. I'm not completely against suicide, but I would consider it only if I knew I had a terminal disease with no hope of a cure, and that's it.

I won't try and tell you that things get better, but things will change, new challenges will confront you, and new opportunities will always show up. But death is way too final an alternative to choose before you have considered all of your options.

I hope this rambling helped.

[AlexanderTheGreat]

I think that who ever you are, who ever anyone is. They matter. They are important. They isn't a single person out of the 7 billion people on this earth that you and I walk on that isn't important!! Every one in their life has a low point. One of my friends wanted to die and for years I was trying to help him. Over the holidays I didn't hear from him and when he came back to school he had been changed. I asked him what had changed and he told me this:

For years now my life has been shit. Shit grades. Shit friends. Shit life. I wanted to die. Halfway through the holidays I was gonna do it! I was gonna kill myself. I was sitting down by river crying. Then a man went up to me and said "don't do it mate! I know where you are! The last time I saw my mother before she died I told her to fuck off. For years I felt bad but, and I know it sounds cheesey, but if you look around the corner there is always hope! This world was built on hope, and there is plenty more! Look at you! Young skin and bones, you have years ahead of you, don't do it"

I hope you feel better and make the right choice.

[Harry Smith]

If you really are wanting to kill yourself then call Samaritans or any other free help number. They can offer you more advice on the issue

And Whilst I respect the fact that this is a very sensitive topic I would like to remind members to respect each other or I'll have to lock this

[Stronk Serb]

Do not do it. I wanted to do it. I could not bare the thought of making my loved ones sad. With high school, I think you can enlist in the army. Being in the army is a very serious job. You can make a military carrier. I failed badly at school so I am going to enlist. It will strengthen you and show you that you can do everything. I will also do it for patriotic reasons and for the fact that as long as I live, my country, my family and me would be free.

[Toby Tenma]

I'm done with this shit! I'm sick and tired of my fucking stupid meaningless life!! My grades suck, I have no friends, my family doesn't really care about me, I'll never amount to much, I can't do anything right. If I die, I'll make no difference, I'm just another stupid pathetic little human being who is living by obligation.

Suicide is a Permanent Solution to a Temporary Problem, therefor, it is highly illogical to commit suicide.

[NotASpyingRent]

I'm done with this shit! I'm sick and tired of my fucking stupid meaningless life!! My grades suck, I have no friends, my family doesn't really care about me, I'll never amount to much, I can't do anything right. If I die, I'll make no difference, I'm just another stupid pathetic little human being who is living by obligation.

The life you live now is not necessary going to be your future. If you give your all each day and make good descisions, then life will surely get better.

[Exploder77]

It will get better? MY LIFE IS FUCKING RUINED!!! My grades are shit and it's too late to work on them and are not enough to go to college! My PARENTS, the ONLY PEOPLE I CAN TALK TO, don't fucking understand my situation!!! All the people I talk to are always trying to bring me down, how can I make friends? If I die, my family WON'T MISS ME, NOT EVEN A LITTLE BIT, because they're just as shitty as my classmates!!! I'm SICK AND TIRED of living! My grades are shit, I'm lonely as a dog, I'm a fucking dumbass, no one will ever miss me! Besides, I've been looking up to kill myself since I was 6, it's the only thing I look up to!

Agreed my life fucks to. U just got to work through it
-Exploder77:mad:

[Chris Daniels]

I'm done with this shit! I'm sick and tired of my fucking stupid meaningless life!! My grades suck, I have no friends, my family doesn't really care about me, I'll never amount to much, I can't do anything right. If I die, I'll make no difference, I'm just another stupid pathetic little human being who is living by obligation.

I see one problem here. You. You don't want to listen. You have a lot to say for the people trying to give you advices how to handle your situation and you're just countering them. If you don't want to listen, fine. If you keep on thinking that way, you will never get better. You're not good at anything now? That's true, you're saying it. I am basing what i'm saying now on everything that you wrote so far. All I want to say is, you're the only one who can help yourself if you just think carefully about it. No one else. There's no point asking for advices if your mind's close. If you still don't, it's fine, too. When you die, visit me with your ghost and you'll see what i'm talking about.