Dimentio
May 28th, 2013, 03:45 PM
Well today was so funny and great and amazing and i did not stop laughing it was amazing!
But Nicole said to me that everything thinks our friend Joe is ugly but the thing is Joe is actually really attractive and that got me thinking, If they think he is ugly i want to see how they view me as if he is ugly i look like fucking dog shit or something! Like it just REALLY hurts as one you don't say that about friends and two you don't say that about attractive people as ugly people like me feel even more worse.
And i know this is on the internet, But seriously this name it just makes me cry, I can deal with being called names but this one, I cannot, I was watching Pewdiepie's latest video and people were saying "GOD HATES FAGGOTS!" And it really upset me and hurt me because of that name, So i commented saying how disrespectful and rude it is and being a gay guy how deeply offensive that name is and i have Christian friends and they love me even though i am gay and said god hates the sin and not the sinner and as long as you are good you still go to heaven so being gay does not matter!
But loads of people replied in various ways saying go die you faggot and all crap like this so i was already crying and feeling like utter shit, But this made it loads worse!
So my friend sent me this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-BIye98Ryic
And this is one of those songs i cannot listen to without crying, Like i love P!nk already and just how she says that no matter what you look like or what you do or who you are, You are perfect to her no matter what anyone else things, And it made me cry even more!
But i have never wanted to cut and never got the urge to do it but right now, I just felt like running a bath and cutting myself, That is how depressed and crap i feel and i have NEVER gotten this bad and bad stuff has happened in my life, So yeah, I feel really bad right now.
I just want someone to be here with me and hug me and hold me and listen to me and let me cry in their arms and just tell me why they love me and not to listen to those other people, I'm sorry this is a bit of a rant and i swore a lot but i do not care, I just feel really really depressed right now and i cannot cry any more i have cried so much, I just need someone :'(
But Nicole said to me that everything thinks our friend Joe is ugly but the thing is Joe is actually really attractive and that got me thinking, If they think he is ugly i want to see how they view me as if he is ugly i look like fucking dog shit or something! Like it just REALLY hurts as one you don't say that about friends and two you don't say that about attractive people as ugly people like me feel even more worse.
And i know this is on the internet, But seriously this name it just makes me cry, I can deal with being called names but this one, I cannot, I was watching Pewdiepie's latest video and people were saying "GOD HATES FAGGOTS!" And it really upset me and hurt me because of that name, So i commented saying how disrespectful and rude it is and being a gay guy how deeply offensive that name is and i have Christian friends and they love me even though i am gay and said god hates the sin and not the sinner and as long as you are good you still go to heaven so being gay does not matter!
But loads of people replied in various ways saying go die you faggot and all crap like this so i was already crying and feeling like utter shit, But this made it loads worse!
So my friend sent me this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-BIye98Ryic
And this is one of those songs i cannot listen to without crying, Like i love P!nk already and just how she says that no matter what you look like or what you do or who you are, You are perfect to her no matter what anyone else things, And it made me cry even more!
But i have never wanted to cut and never got the urge to do it but right now, I just felt like running a bath and cutting myself, That is how depressed and crap i feel and i have NEVER gotten this bad and bad stuff has happened in my life, So yeah, I feel really bad right now.
I just want someone to be here with me and hug me and hold me and listen to me and let me cry in their arms and just tell me why they love me and not to listen to those other people, I'm sorry this is a bit of a rant and i swore a lot but i do not care, I just feel really really depressed right now and i cannot cry any more i have cried so much, I just need someone :'(