Sudds3
May 28th, 2013, 12:17 AM
So my birthday is coming up in a few days, and I'm not excited at all. To be honest I'm completely dreading it. I have no idea why. My birthday has never really been a huge deal to me, I usually just go to six flags or have a normal day like go to a track meet and then maybe something good for dinner. If I could I would just skip over my birthday this year but I can't. Im going to be 15 and I'm getting my permit. So everyone knows. I just don't want people to make a huge deal out of it. After thinking about it all i came to the conclusion that I don't want people to make a big deal about my birthday because it's a day celebrating my birth which was a crappy day too. If you have seen any of my posts over the past year or so you would know I'm not doing too well, i have my ups and downs like everyone else. Attempted to kill myself 3 times this school year alone, started cutting, stopped cutting...yada yada yada. Well i feel like i just don't want people to get too attached to me and happy that I'm alive (birthday) incase i do kill myself one day. I just want to get out quickly and quietly without people knowing. Can anyone help?