Croconaw
May 27th, 2013, 09:31 PM
I have trouble trusting people because I was betrayed one too many times. I guess I consider it my fault. I was in desperate need for some friends. Everywhere I looked, everywhere I turned; there were groups of people having fun. And there I was, the loner. The one standing in the corner of the classroom waiting for first period to start. I guess I could consider this my fault. Everyone that said hi to me or everyone that talked to me... I automatically considered them my friend. Why did I have to be so stupid? I can't believe how stupid I was back then. That was how desperate I was.
I was always so jealous of the groups of friends. How comfortable they were around each other, and the fact that they could get along so well. As much as I'd hate to admit it, I wanted to be like them. I wanted to know what it felt like to have friends. There is a group of people; and all they talk about is anime and video games. That's good for me, as I love Pokémon and video games. There's a problem though. They never acknowledge the fact that I like these things, or that I even exist. I tell myself that they are not worth my time. They're not.
There are three people in the group. I will call them A, B, and C, for privacy reasons.
Person A is in 7 out of my 8 classes. We had a field trip together recently, and I don't think she even aknowledged the fact I was there. After the field trip: We went to Wendy's (The same one my dad works at). Then she was looking over the whole time I was talking to my dad. I got finished with my food early. I was standing near the wall next to the trash can. Person A walks up to throw her food away, then I say hi to her. Person A responds back "Hi there..." Why was she acting like this at all? She sounded all depressed. When she responded, she looked the other way.
Person B is the nicer one in the group. I can relate to her in terms of experiences very much. When I say hi to her, she says hi back in a really enthusiastic tone every time. She says I draw really well. She usually initiates our conversations.
Person C is a smart, straight A student I barely talk to. Person C and person B are best friends. I had to work with (I was forced by the teacher) Person A and Person C on a paper during class. From what I know from this, Person C seems to be nice.
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I have one person in life that I fully trust. I know that no matter what happens, she'll never turn on me. The one friend I will have. (She doesn't go to the same school)
I sit alone at lunch. I have person A and Person C (they were mentioned above) looking at me sitting there...sitting alone.
All my friends are on another forum. I'm very active on it. I have come to the conclusion that the reason I have no friends is because people told me I'm ugly (I really don't think so personally)... but I have friends online and get treated with respect. It is true people judge you based on how you look, because I act the same online and have friends.
/END RANT.
I was always so jealous of the groups of friends. How comfortable they were around each other, and the fact that they could get along so well. As much as I'd hate to admit it, I wanted to be like them. I wanted to know what it felt like to have friends. There is a group of people; and all they talk about is anime and video games. That's good for me, as I love Pokémon and video games. There's a problem though. They never acknowledge the fact that I like these things, or that I even exist. I tell myself that they are not worth my time. They're not.
There are three people in the group. I will call them A, B, and C, for privacy reasons.
Person A is in 7 out of my 8 classes. We had a field trip together recently, and I don't think she even aknowledged the fact I was there. After the field trip: We went to Wendy's (The same one my dad works at). Then she was looking over the whole time I was talking to my dad. I got finished with my food early. I was standing near the wall next to the trash can. Person A walks up to throw her food away, then I say hi to her. Person A responds back "Hi there..." Why was she acting like this at all? She sounded all depressed. When she responded, she looked the other way.
Person B is the nicer one in the group. I can relate to her in terms of experiences very much. When I say hi to her, she says hi back in a really enthusiastic tone every time. She says I draw really well. She usually initiates our conversations.
Person C is a smart, straight A student I barely talk to. Person C and person B are best friends. I had to work with (I was forced by the teacher) Person A and Person C on a paper during class. From what I know from this, Person C seems to be nice.
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I have one person in life that I fully trust. I know that no matter what happens, she'll never turn on me. The one friend I will have. (She doesn't go to the same school)
I sit alone at lunch. I have person A and Person C (they were mentioned above) looking at me sitting there...sitting alone.
All my friends are on another forum. I'm very active on it. I have come to the conclusion that the reason I have no friends is because people told me I'm ugly (I really don't think so personally)... but I have friends online and get treated with respect. It is true people judge you based on how you look, because I act the same online and have friends.
/END RANT.