Just want to sleep...

[Dark Zodiac]

I'm so sick of e everything. I hate that I can't talk to anyone, no matter how much I want to. I just want to leave my past behind me. I just want to go home and be who I was before everything happened. I want to be three again, so I could be hugged and loved, and told everything is okay. I don't want to be grown up and face the world. I'm sick of self harm. I'm sick of being fat. I'm sick of my step dad. I'm sick of rejection. I want to be loved. I hate myself.
I want to sleep and be numb, okay?

[Fiction]

I can relate with so much of what you're saying.

If you can't talk to anyone try writing it down? I have a diary I keep for when i'm feeling down and I write all the things in it that i'd never tell anyone. Then you have the choice whether to show it to anyone. It could help you to communicate your feelings to someone who can help, or you could just use it as a place to vent the things you don't want other people to know, either way it can help.

You haven't really given me a lot of detail to go on so I can't really give you a lot of advice, but what I can say is nothing you're upset about will last forever. One day you'll move out of your house, and then it's up to you if you see your step dad or not. It is possible to get over self-harm. It takes effort but it is possible.

Nothing lasts forever, things will change just unfortunately sometimes all you can do is wait.

[Dark Zodiac]

I do write things down, but when I go through them again it just makes me feel sick.
I've waited six years for this shit to go away.