So suicidal it's not even funny

[TheCoolKid1337]

I see no reason for me to go on anymore. I am extremely depressed, I have social anxiety, I am a rack of bones because I don't eat very much, and to top it all off i'm bisexual, but lean wayy more towards guys.

At school I have about 6 good friends I hang out with all the time, but I never ever see them after school because no one wants anything to do with me. I always sit at home all weekend and the summer on my laptop or Xbox, because that's all I can do. I had a REALLY hard time making those friends because I have SA and get nervous talking to people I don't know. To make it all better, 4 of the 6 friends are moving to different school next year, leaving me basically a loner at school and at home, doing absolutely nothing with my life. It makes me even more depressed about it to see on Facebook everyone posting pictures of them having fun, or at the mall, or at the zoo together, actually having fun in their life.

Yes, I am a guy an kind of have an eating disorder. I don't vomit every time, or anything for that matter, after I eat, I just don't like eating. If my mom would make Turkey, stuffing, potatoes, gravy and vegetables for supper I would have a small piece of potatoes and that's it. I am a rack of bones.

I see on Facebook and real life my friends making out with girls, but I just cannot imagine that. I can't emotionally connect with girls in any way as I can guys. But, in my school with my friends they'd all ditch you because you're a fruit, so I figured just be sad for my teenage years and date a girl if I even get the chance.

Because of all this I am depressed and thinking about what would happen if I die. No one would care except for my parents, and the pain would be gone. It sounds like a good option to me. If you read all of this, thank you for taking your time to read this. :(

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Don't do it. People do care and you said it yourself. Who gives a damn about the kids at school, at least you've got family who cares. Ask your parents if they want to do something, make them feel young. This all sounds incredibly hypocritical coming from me but make yourself feel good and have a good time with the people who care most about you. If that's family than do it with them.

[The LOLer]

Hell no. I won't let you. Suicide won't help anything or anyone. Your life will get better. Stay strong.

[stew4rt]

I can relate to so much of what you're experiencing although not all, about 90%. The thing that's stopped me is thinking before ending it all how much those who care would be hurt by it and then blaming themselves for not doing enough which even though we both they have done more than enough to make us happy they will not know this and wouldn't understand why this is how you feel if this is so if you tried to explain this to them.

[Miri]

I know things can be hard in life, but always remember that there are people that love you. You say that 4 friends are changing schools? Keep in touch with them, and remember the 2 friends that are you still have. They care about you, and I'm sure that they're there for you if you ever need to talk.

If you ever want to talk about anything, you can always send me a message (I can't do private messages, write on my page). If you want it to be private, I can give you my email,but only if you want to. I'm not on Facebook, for the very reasons you mention above. I might be able to help you feel a little less lonely, and I would never judge you.

Stay strong, you are not alone!

[xXoblivionXx]

Hey Jordan, let me tell you something. I care. I care about you so much, and so does your parents, and everyone else who replied to this. Suicide would relieve you of your pain but it would leave your family and so many more people in even more pain. I know things may be extremely bad right now in your life but it does get better. Coming from experience if I could go back to the night when I was contemplating suicide I wouldn't have taken those pills. You can make the right choice. You are a fighter, a survivor of depression. Don't let depression win, you can do it. Trust me, I'm living proof that it does get better. Please feel free to contact me anytime. I want to help. Jordan, I care if you live even if you don't.

[Boyfreshx]

You have to relax and think, is it really worth it? How many people will be affected by your actions. I have spoken to people about this before, stay strong. Msg me

[Harry Smith]

I don't want to scare you but this will be the End of your life, literally. Its a permanent solution to a temporary solution, school and friends are just a very small part of your life, what your in school for 10 years, and most people live into there 70's, you have 60 odd years to enjoy the many wonders of life

[Boyfreshx]

I don't want to scare you but this will be the End of your life, literally. Its a permanent solution to a temporary solution, school and friends are just a very small part of your life, what your in school for 10 years, and most people live into there 70's, you have 60 odd years to enjoy the many wonders of life

I couldn't think of a better way to phrase it.

[Michael1997]

Jordan, suicide is not the answer. Don't do it. School is only a small portion of your life, and it only gets better! Think about how amazing your future will be, and how you will have a great life after school. I can relate to some of your problems, but I have always ignored it. Please PM me if you would like to talk.