needing help..... Again

[CleanBlades95]

okay i need to let some stuff out, and get help. i have been clean for about a month and i have been feeling good about it and the past few days i have been down. i hate times atm and i just feel like a freak, worthless and a loser. I am stupid for even thinking that people will even care. i have never been on forum so this is my first time. I have had ways of distracting myself when i have been like this before but nothing seems to be working. I need help guys please. anything will be a help.

[Croconaw]

It doesn't matter what people think. Those people are just assholes. Do you have someone you can talk to?

[HockeyLovesMe]

okay i need to let some stuff out, and get help. i have been clean for about a month and i have been feeling good about it and the past few days i have been down. i hate times atm and i just feel like a freak, worthless and a loser. I am stupid for even thinking that people will even care. i have never been on forum so this is my first time. I have had ways of distracting myself when i have been like this before but nothing seems to be working. I need help guys please. anything will be a help.

do u have lots of friends? u cld talk to them or seriously talk to yur mom or dad for sure and umm how old are u :)

[Croconaw]

do u have lots of friends? u cld talk to them or seriously talk to yur mom or dad for sure and umm how old are u :)

I'm guessing 17... (1995)

[CleanBlades95]

I did have someone to talk to, but then people started to say things about me going and talking to the teacher at my school so I have stopped going to talk him. People have seen the scars on my arms and they go and tell others and someone on my year told me to "get a grip". I just get angry and then want to cut again

I am 17 yea. I don't like to tally to y mum about it and my dad died 8 years ago. I keep thinking my friends have had enough of listening to my problems all the time

Thanks for the reply

[HockeyLovesMe]

I did have someone to talk to, but then people started to say things about me going and talking to the teacher at my school so I have stopped going to talk him. People have seen the scars on my arms and they go and tell others and someone on my year told me to "get a grip". I just get angry and then want to cut again

I am 17 yea. I don't like to tally to y mum about it and my dad died 8 years ago. I keep thinking my friends have had enough of listening to my problems all the time

Thanks for the reply

well ya it wld be kind of depressing for yur friends to hear it.. yur school shld have a guidance councillor like every school here does.. u shld for sure go and see that person and mabey not a teacher

[CleanBlades95]

Naw my school doesn't have a councillor, it's kinda crap like that

[The Awkward Artist]

I'm really sorry you feel this way. No one deserves it. If you don't think you can talk to anyone about these issues, I'd suggest writing. Like just write lit your feelings- be as foul-languages and horrible as you can- and yarn to up the paper. For me, when I do this, it feels like I'm ripping up the bad thought and feelings. I know it's not much, but it's something. Another good way to get rid of an urge is to grab an ice cube. Just hold it to your skin or just hold it in your palm. And if you err need someone to talk to, for help, just to rant to, or whatever, I'm here. Hope I could help. Things will be good in the end. If it isn't good, it isn't the end. :)

[The Awkward Artist]

*out
*languaged
*rip up the paper
* ever

Sorry for the stupid typos- damn autocorrec!t

[CleanBlades95]

i have kept a little book thing before and it did help but then it would feel like my problems are real, (sometimes i don't think they are). i know it sounds sooo stupid but its just how i feel. i don't even know why i bother with things because i will just end up in the same place again, i try not to but its the way it goes i suppose :/.

[SamanthaMaciel]

taljing to ur parenta isnt always an answer... some people dont talj to them in that kind of way... it fustrates me when ppl automatically answer talk to a therapist or ur parents... i mean really ppl are looking for helo from U GUYS not their parants or else they wouldnt be on this site