Lost the best boyfriend I ever had.

[Jonathan1998]

I hate myself, why did I do it

I am so depressed, that my boyfriend broke up with me over the course of last night into this morning and, I really love him, I can't let him go. I made a stupid mistake of falling for another guy and then started something off with him. At first when he found out he took it well until late night into the next morning we got into an argument and now we're broken up.

I have tried to tell him, that the other guy wouldn't replace him but he kept saying that the other guys I have dated are better than him and well... we got into a massive argument. I feel crushed and he's even more crushed. I feel like absolute shit.

I wish I could just undo it all and just be happy again. I've been crying all night too. I can't get over him. My heart refuses to let him go.

Losing him also has given me suicidal thoughts, like hanging, jumping out in front of a truck at fast speed, slitting my wrists and bleeding to death, even shoving a knife through my own heart.

It's hard to do this. It's really depressing and I just want to get out of this depression :(

[Coolboi]

ok I wasn't going to post on this because it is all about mee an jonny ! my heart was broke jonny . so be honest , trustworthy an faithful to the one your in love with be it your boyfriend or girlfriend an this will never happen . I just hope you are ok and don't ever hope this happens to you . so jonny an everyone who reads this if your dating someone be there's be honest an faithful to them an it won't happen to you . your eyes are made for looking so if your dating stay true to your lover . jonny I I no mistakes happen an I forgave you if there is anything I can do u no how contact me . well we are back together an I can an will be there for you if your still hurting . lov ya jonny keep the faith an never cheat as it inflicts pain an anguish to both people . I hope this helps you out I will be there to talk about it as needed to you or anyone . you showed me what love is a love is all about thank you . love you xx

[Miri]

I'm sorry that you're going through this, and let me just say I understand how you feel.
Maybe try being honest and telling him how you really feel? If you get a chance to explain it to him, explain everything, because the best time to do things is the first chance you get, and make sure to tell him how much you care.
If it's meant to be, everything will work out.
Good luck, and hang in there!

[Jake Morgan]

True love is expressed in pure trust and loyalty. Without those two at 100% relationships are doomed to calamity or failure.