some help.

[titanic]

hey
i am only just new here so i am not quite sure how this works but i will try anyway.
i think i may be suffereing from and eating disorda of some sorts maybe. or on the verge of starting to get one. everyone tells me that i am skinny and i guess in a slight way i do aswell but i dont think i am skinny enough. i am 163cm tall, and weigh 44 kilos. i look at everyone around me and i feel like they are so much more skinnier then me and that i want to be like them. i just see fat on my body that other people dont nessarily see.

i try to stop eating and i succed for like a week but then my bodie goes into wack or somehting and i start to eat and i cant stop, it is like a cycle. the other problem is that i think i like the thought of having and eating disorda it sounds really good and so tempting.

[Maverick]

Just for sake of clarity you weigh 44 what? In what units?

[titanic]

sorry i weigh 44 kilos

[byee]

44 Kg.=97 lbs., 163Cm.= 5'4". This would make you on the slim side, I'm not sure why you'd see yourself as fat or needing to lose weight. (Avg. weight for 163Cm=52Kg. to 58Kg.).

[thesphinx]

yeah if anything you need to gain weight, you need to accept yourself as you. and if you keep eating they way you are there will be just skin and bones. and skin and bones isn't attractive.

[titanic]

skin and bones isnt attractive but i am not skin and bones i am just fat.
last night was the first time i ate in about 1 week, i felt so icky after i ate that i made myself vomit. i havnt eaten today and i dont plan on eating.

[thesphinx]

but your going to become skin and bones if you keep this up!

[titanic]

but i cant stop.
i dont no if i want to stop though.
i tried to stop once and i couldnt i can bring myslef to eat.

[thesphinx]

Stop not for yourself stop for your friends and family. This is a road the goes no where and you will end up skin and bones.
Have you ever tried talking to someone about this?
it can help a lot to get your feelings out.

[0=]

Get some exercise. It raises your mood and will make your body look better as your muscles get toned. Usually the issue with how a skinny body looks is the amount of muscle on it.

[titanic]

nah. i have never talked to any one about this, but i dont want to. i would prefer to keep it on the down low if you know what i mean.
and i dont exercise, i am not someone who exercises.

[0=]

Exercise is great. You may not think so right now, but it actually makes you feel good. Just give it a try, I guarantee you'll feel better.

[byee]

Yeah, i'm with Michael on this one, too. You're surely not fat, your experience of yourself as fat isn't accurate. This isn't about weight, it's about something else. If you're really bothered by it and cannot see it clearly, if you continue to not eat, you need to tell someone and get some help.

[titanic]

thanks guys for the advice.
does it count if i just tell a friend?
i cant eat. i just cant, i cant bring myself to eat.

[thesphinx]

That could be a good step, but if you are that serious about not eating you need to talk to a professional.
YOU WILL KILL YOURSELF if you don't eat! do you understand?

[titanic]

hey,
well i havnt told my friend yet.
i think i might tell him tonight maybe.

i just can do it. i cant. its too hard.
i must sound so stupid saying that cant eat that it is to hard.
but it is, it really is.
:(

[0=]

Well, it's all you. We can't force you. We're just here to reinforce what's right so you know for sure what you must do. You have to force yourself to eat.

[thesphinx]

Eating really isn't a choice, you have to eat to live. If you don't you will eventually die, So please eat!