Owens
May 16th, 2013, 11:54 PM
So to start, Im a junior in highschool, I play sports, I play piano, I consider myself to be intelligent, kind, not too needy and generally goodlooking and attractive. I met a girl at the beginning of this year who instantly stood out to me as special, things went really well from there, she was a freshmen. Anyways we started dating I fell in love. , and I became frustrated that she couldn't see me as me as much as I wanted because of her parents and I was mostly the one who brought up hanging out. anyways, I broke up with her and days later I wanted her back, she was just everything I wanted, no one could compare. she didn't want to date again but she said she still had a lot of feelings for me and wanted to be friends for a while first. I was okay with that. A month or so later I mentioned getting back together, same answer. Little did I know, the reason why was because her best friend had fallen hard for me (who I didn't like at the time) and she told the Kendra (the girl I dated) she would want to like die if we dated again, being best friends Kendra agreed not to. Then, just as her best friends getting over me and things were looking good fro Kendra and I, her guy friend, who I consider to be extremely undesireable and unattractive, affirmed by many girls, was getting obsessed with Kendra. Long story short now Kendra didn't want to date bc it would upset him. So I told her we are done being friends and I couldn't wait any longer. I really tried with her. That was today. Feeling insecure, I told her best friend I was having some feelings for her (which is the truth, she has been here for me through everything) now her best friend, who Kendra constantly ditches and treats like shit to please her guy friend, who she doesent even have feelings for. Anyways now her best friend doesent feel like we should try dating because it would upset Kendra, even though Kendra treats her like shit. Im not desperate for a girl, or anything like that. I was just feeling that way towards her and I figured she would still feel the same but im in the same position as I was with Kendra. Now I feel insanely insecure and depressed and miserable. Any thoughts?