screamtobeheard
May 15th, 2013, 08:22 AM
I woke up around 7:45 so I could go to the pool around 8 and swim for an hour and then study because it’s exam week. Well, I get to the pool and it’s closed for no apparent reason, which really pisses me off, but I’m like, “That’s okay, self. I can just ride my bike for awhile!” So I go up to my room to get my bike and the fucking handlebars are broken and it’s not safely rideable, but I tried riding it for a little while (before I realized I can’t safely change the gears) and in that time, it started to rain. Fantfuckingtastic! So I bring my bike back to my room and decide I’ll just go back to the gym and run or something, but by the time I get there, it’s about 9 and if I want to get to studying on time (and pass my exams), I’ll have no time. So I left and came back and now I’m jittery and pissed off. And then my boyfriend told me to relax, and I told him I’m trying but I’m not good at it. And he, knowing how shitty my morning has been, says, “Try something physical. It usually helps.” And honestly, I don’t think anything else could have pissed me off more. It’s frustrating enough when every method of de-stressing you have rejects you. And then to get taunted about it just makes it even worse.
I know it sounds stupid to be so upset over such a small thing, but I really need to do well on my finals. I've got $60,000 on the line. And I need to exercise in order to stay sane. When I don't work out, I have a horrible tendency to starve myself and my depression spikes, and it's just awful. So that's why it upsets me so much when things like this happen.
I know it sounds stupid to be so upset over such a small thing, but I really need to do well on my finals. I've got $60,000 on the line. And I need to exercise in order to stay sane. When I don't work out, I have a horrible tendency to starve myself and my depression spikes, and it's just awful. So that's why it upsets me so much when things like this happen.