Gain weight - paranoid

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I don't consider myself having an eating disorder, though... this fits here quite right. A month and a half earlier I went into inpatient treatment and had to stay in a mental house in order to get better. Things is, medication + a lot of meals daily (3 meals, 2 snacks) I gain 14 pounds and my measurments went off the roof. So they day I weighed myself and had 128 pounds I freaked out. Started thinking of purging again, of starving myself, of exercising... all that... and my recovery has been a little bit hard because i have to deal with all these urges... so... i don't know... help in any way? :(

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If you gained the weight because of the conditions in the hospital, just by eating how you used too it will come off again. Besides, 128 pounds isn't big by any stretch of the imagination.

My advice is not too weigh yourself. I know that's hard but weighing myself usually triggers me. I've put on weight lately too and I think it may be the medication i'm on. If you count calories also try your best not to do that.

One thing i've found that has helped is by eating extremely healthily. It makes me feel like i'm not putting as much fat and calories into my body, but at the same time i'm eating enough and not going back to how I was.