I don't want to be Bisexual/Gay.

[baejra]

So Ever since early year 9 (13 years old) I began to feel the same way about guys as I do about girls. I've just turned 16, and for the last couple of years I sort of accepted being bi, watching straight and gay porn in a fairly equal amount, (I often go through weekly phases of being gay or straight).

But recently, thinking about getting into a serious relationship scares me. I've not had a girlfriend properly, I mean I have plenty of friends who are girls, but I'm scared I might not be fully attracted to them all the time if I was to ask one out, and being bi (for me) has made me more picky around girls... And it made me think, I just want to be straight and normal.

I hate my self for being bisexual sometimes, I feel like I don't belong anywhere and question why I am like this... (but most of the time I'm perfectly happy with my life!).

I just need some support as I haven't told anyone my situation.

[lukene]

There is literally no way to say this nicely. You can't choose your sexuality, you can try and deny it and pretend to be straight but you will just end up hurting yourself and others. Do what feels right not what is "right" in social standards. Being straight doesn't mean your normal, I'm sure the majority of murders/criminally insane are straight and I would not call them normal. Don't ask a girl out simply because you want to fit in that is totally unfair to the girl, only do it if you are sure you like her.

[darkdude41]

dude, being bisexual is the best thing ever. You get to try out both sides man!

I'm not really sure what kind of support you're looking for??? Uh, go get em, champ? lol

[JonasBe]

You cannot choose your sexuality, and denying it will do you more harm in the end.
So just go with whatever you turn out to be, it's not a choice, so live with it.

I understand it's hard for you because you don't have friends who are like you, but try to fiend some, there are always lgbt centers or something like that in your neighborhood.

[Twilly F. Sniper]

Sexual attractions are not your choice. I understand, I don't like how bisexuality fits either.

[paulw]

The best advice i got given recently was, think of yourself 20 years from now looking back on you right now, and what would your future self think about the situation.

Future you would probably either think a) i'm so glad i got over that, turns out it was a ways smaller deal than i thought, and i thought everyone would judge me for it and it would mess up my life, but it turns out in the end i'm still totally fine or b) shit why did i spend so much time holding myself back as a person, i coulda just got on with enjoying life

You only get one life and if you waste too much of it on worrying about things you can't change, you never get that time back. Go with your natural flow, you're the most important person in your life and so you should go ahead enjoying whatever you truly honestly enjoy and don't worry about it :)