Mothers Day without a mother anyone?

[Silent Tears]

I've been just a tad more upset lately, than usual. When someone made a joke about mothers day, I realized Mothers Day was coming soon. Now, I'm even more angry. It never seemed that bad. But, I just keep remembering what a crap mother mine is, and how the ONLY TIME she wanted to see me in YEARS was on Mothers Day last year. We haven't spoken since. (I'm 16 btw) I keep going over every little thing she's done in the past, to... and how I would react if I saw her again.

Such a loving holiday brings out such anger for me. Hmm, anyone else like this? I guess absent mothers aren't as common as absent fathers... It hurts just as much though. I just think about how everyone says that no one can love you like a mother, because she carried you for 9 months inside of her... But mine never even loved me. Sorry, I guess I just needed to vent a little. :/

[Hunter_Steel]

Having been adopted by my grandparents, I do not know how it is to have an actual mother. I never had a real mother on mother's day or father's day. Even though the two people I know I call them mom and dad, but the problem is, my real mother couldn't be bothered with me, she put me up for adoption when my lazy ass father filed for divorce and I ended up being adopted by my grandparents.

While I have two loving grandparents, the two people that made me did not care about me, and only now, nearly 17 years later are trying to show an interest but it is much too late for them to show any interest. And for the most part, I've distanced myself from my entire family, I barely talk to anyone in my family and just try to keep to myself.

Mother's day or Father's day doesn't incite anger, but my birthdays do. I can remember how many birthdays my real parents arrived to congratulate me on 4 fingers. I can sortof understand how you feel, but this is something that will eventually go away once you learn to let go of the past. Therapists can sometimes help in this situation, other times its just surrounding yourself with good friends and good people that will allow to you let go of the past. Trust me, I know it works, I've been there. And I am happy that I finally managed to make a good friend in the world who will stick by me no matter what. :)

And you'll find a person like that soon enough. But yeah, this is an issue that not many of us can identify with (correct me if I am wrong) but you will be able to look at mother's day one day, and not get angry. Coz who knows, you might be the mother and you might have children who will make you feel special on those days. :)

~Hunter