quick

[Bath]

i can't feel my heartbeat
so i think about my first day in high school.
bright eyed in the dazy sunrise
i couldn't find the three-story building
months and months later i would replay
the images of the children that seemed so old
rushing past me
while i wandered lost.

can not differentiate the daydreams from memories
i pick and choose which are which
who was who and how they smelled
i ask god to remind me how she laughed.
he delivers and it hits me hard.

i say i adore you instead of i love you
you understand what i mean,
i'm so happy i'm alive.

it's already spring
it'll be spring next year too,
it always comes around again.

i wish one morning the sun won't rise
i wonder about the panic that would ensue
while i sleep and sleep and sleep
i'm so happy i'm alive.