I want to begin my self harm

[ToxicAce371]

I'm so depressed nowadays after what has happened with my family. :c

I'm going to be straight up honest..I don't know how to. I have a pencil sharpener's blade for a cutting utensil.

I don't want to bleed excessively, don't want it to show very badly, don't want everyone to see or my friends to know.
Don't tell me that I shouldn't cut. I want to.


God, this is so hard..

[xDarkAngelx]

Well, I'm not going to say that you shouldn't cut but from experience maybe persuade you not to. You may be thinking now it'll only be a few cuts now and then, just a one off when you feel really down and probably never do it again. If you start it becomes and addiction, spreads over your body. Turns from small scratches to deeper cuts leaving long lasting scars and then will be far more difficult to hide. It spreads from one small part of your body such as your wrist and then further up your arm, you'll lose control of it eventually and in the end regret doing it. Because you'll look at yourself and think, what have I done and maybe like not be able to wear short sleeves in hot weather.

No one is saying don't do it, but think now about what you're getting yourself into before it's too late and you suffer the consequences. If you think you might do it try and distract yourself, music, drawing just something that you enjoy that takes your mind off the temptation of doing it. If your not seeing someone anyway, I'd suggest seeing a counselor or someone so you can tell someone how you're feeling and be able to help with all the different emotions and depression that you're facing. Hope I helped.

[UnknownError]

Don't be so stupid. By saying "I want to cut but I don't know etc etc" you are basically indirectly mocking people that have a real problem with self harm. Go eat some fruit or something and do something less dumb.

[ToxicAce371]

Well, I'm not going to say that you shouldn't cut but from experience maybe persuade you not to. You may be thinking now it'll only be a few cuts now and then, just a one off when you feel really down and probably never do it again. If you start it becomes and addiction, spreads over your body. Turns from small scratches to deeper cuts leaving long lasting scars and then will be far more difficult to hide. It spreads from one small part of your body such as your wrist and then further up your arm, you'll lose control of it eventually and in the end regret doing it. Because you'll look at yourself and think, what have I done and maybe like not be able to wear short sleeves in hot weather.

No one is saying don't do it, but think now about what you're getting yourself into before it's too late and you suffer the consequences. If you think you might do it try and distract yourself, music, drawing just something that you enjoy that takes your mind off the temptation of doing it. If your not seeing someone anyway, I'd suggest seeing a counselor or someone so you can tell someone how you're feeling and be able to help with all the different emotions and depression that you're facing. Hope I helped.

Thank you, this helped a lot.

Don't be so stupid. By saying "I want to cut but I don't know etc etc" you are basically indirectly mocking people that have a real problem with self harm. Go eat some fruit or something and do something less dumb.

I'm not being stupid nor dumb? I'm stating a completely innocent statement. I have this urge to actually cut because I'm very depressed over my sexual assault from my dad. I feel all of this is my fault and I shouldn't of told anybody. I'm not mocking anyone. My friends in real life cut as well and I would never mock them.

IF I was going to mock someone, it would be flat out and no doubt, mocking.
I understand what you mean and how you may have taken that, but I did not mean it in that way. I apologize if you didn't understand.

[UnknownError]

I'm not being stupid nor dumb? I'm stating a completely innocent statement. I have this urge to actually cut because I'm very depressed over my sexual assault from my dad. I feel all of this is my fault and I shouldn't of told anybody. I'm not mocking anyone. My friends in real life cut as well and I would never mock them.

IF I was going to mock someone, it would be flat out and no doubt, mocking.
I understand what you mean and how you may have taken that, but I did not mean it in that way. I apologize if you didn't understand.

I came off a little strongly, I'm sorry about that. I just think you need to ignore those thoughts and completely focus on something else. If you haven't done it before there is no reason you should be feeling that it is a thing that you should start. When people say it ruined their lives they mean it literally, it does nothing to help with depression and in fact makes it even worst. Not only do you then have the stuff inside your head, you then have marks on your body that remind you of those thoughts. Every day until they fade (or don't, in some cases) is a constant 24 hours of paranoia. I don't know how many times I've had to sit really awkwardly in class to try and make cuts not visible lol. I'm sorry I was rude in my first post, it wasn't necessarily at you it was just general anger.

[ToxicAce371]

I came off a little strongly, I'm sorry about that. I just think you need to ignore those thoughts and completely focus on something else. If you haven't done it before there is no reason you should be feeling that it is a thing that you should start. When people say it ruined their lives they mean it literally, it does nothing to help with depression and in fact makes it even worst. Not only do you then have the stuff inside your head, you then have marks on your body that remind you of those thoughts. Every day until they fade (or don't, in some cases) is a constant 24 hours of paranoia. I don't know how many times I've had to sit really awkwardly in class to try and make cuts not visible lol. I'm sorry I was rude in my first post, it wasn't necessarily at you it was just general anger.


It's alright.

I just thought it would make me feel better.
Not better as in curing, but feeling physical pain instead of emotional pain. (In which I can only hold onto so much..)

I normally wear long sleeves anyway..but summer would be a problem. o.o
You're right. :/

[Professional Russian]

Who the fuck would want to start? I've been through and I know what's it like. I don't mention it very often because I don't want people but I have cut. I know what its like. Once you Start it is extremely hard to stop I'll warn you of that much. If you want to be a dumbass and do it go ahead but just to tell you once you start it is extremely hard to stop. But it is your choice

[ToxicAce371]

Sorry for making you guys upset I'll just leave I don't fit here. :(

[Professional Russian]

Sorry for making you guys upset I'll just leave I don't fit here. :(

You didn't upset us. Its just most of us know the pain that comes with self harm and we try to prevent you from starting s you don't have to go through

[The Awkward Artist]

Please don't start self-harming. It never ends well. It sounds like it will help at first, but then it becomes impossible to stop. You say to yourself, "it'll just be a one time thing, just one cut, just one burn, just one whatever," you believe that at first, and then you become addicted. It's not a good addiction. It screws everything up. friendships, school, family, everything. Things might seem bad now, but they're only going to get worse if you start. I'm speaking from experience. I'm currently recovering from my second battle with self harm, so I know what it's like to feel that way.

Instead of self harming, I suggest writing, drawing, exercise, music, anything else except hurting yourself. You're so much better than that. Stay strong, and if you ever need to talk, you can kik me, and I'll help. My username is myagmonkey

[astrid]

please please please do not start. I'm not going to tell you that you won't be able to stop, that you will become obsessed & every time will be that much worse. no, i went to school today wearing shorts for the first time in years & the looks i got from my friends & the strange treatment people give me & the questions they ask. it makes you feel so low & so nervous & you say now that you'll keep it hidden but trust me, once you become addicted, you do not care & you won't be able to do it. it seriously makes all of your problems so much worse & it will hit a point where it doesn't even help you cope anymore but you can't stop. it has done nothing positive for my mental health. don't start because there are so many other ways to get around this. please.

[RakshaMalayka]

It's not my job to tell you you should or shouldn't start self harming but ill tell you a little story.....
There was once a little girl who everyone thought was happy, no one saw the pain she was holding back and staying silent about. It all remained bottled, waiting to break free. One day when it all came crashing down on her she turned to the scissors on her desk for a sort of release without much thought. That one cut took it all away and soon that one cut turned to many, covering her arms, thighs, back, shoulders, and stomach. Nothing was enough. They grew deeper and consumed more of her body and she tried to stop, but it's an addiction. It became a reliance to find an escape, a release. Long sleeves, hoodies, and jeans became her bestfriends but eventually even that gets compromised. People begin questioning this attire in 80 degree weather. People question why you no longer go to the pool. How you never change for gym. People begin noticing as you go through the huge extents to hide your body.
And now that little girl is 16, after 6 years she's 7 weeks clean and it still effects her. The scars from those nights are still there as a reminder of it all. Even if they go away they'll always be there to her, they'll never go away. She's always selfconcious of her body because people do notice and she's tired of being asked. It will continue to effect her possibly the rest of her life.

So before you decide to ask yourself this, do you want a story like this to become your own? Is it worth it?

[HunterBlue]

You know, a lot of tribal customers that have people go through pain is really a form of self harm. So it's not so unusual and its understandable. People seem to find it therapeutic and satisfying. Like they have actually attacked what is bothering them so much.

The thing is though, cutting or whatever won't do anything to stop what is bothering you. And no matter how much you cut yourself its not going to make anything better. It'll actually make thugs worse. Older girls who show their cuts are always embarrassed about them. I bet guys are too. It's like a bad idea for a tattoo that stays forever.

[Silent Tears]

If you didn't want us to tell you to stop, you wouldn't have posted the thread. Inside, you want us to stop you. You want a reason not to. I was the same way, but when push came to shove no one was there to help me.

Don't start, because it's a huge pain in a ass to stop. It may start out little. Just some thin scratches here and there. But, you will get used to that level of pain, and slowly need to cut deeper, and deeper, and deeper. Cutting will be all you think about. You'll become addicted to it. Just as much as a person can be addicted to drugs. One day, you'll decide enough it enough. Time to quit. But, it's a battle to stop. A battle with yourself.

I was forced to quit, and they didn't understand how hard it was to stop. And, they sure as hell didn't do anything to help me through it. I was on my own, being punished for hurting myself. (Oh, the irony.) For months, I was in pain, feeling like a druggie going through withdrawls, wanting nothing more than to cut. Everyday is a struggle not to. It doesn't go away for me. But, I've managed 5 months cut free. I still felt the addiction to hurt myself though. So, I started hurting myself other ways, without people noticing. I still do.

Once it starts, it WILL get out of hand. If you have cut, get out while you still can. I didn't have anyone to help me through it. Trust me, this is not the right option. It's going to make whatever situation you're in a lot worse in the long run.