Depression patterns

[CharlieHorse]

Do you have a usual time of the day, week, month, year that you feel depressed?
How often do you cry? Where? When?

I'm just curious, because I cry a lot at night and the mornings, and I feel depressed during mornings and nights and afternoons. Mid day is really the only time I manage to feel a little happy, if at all.
:(

Does anyone else really like crying?
Does anyone else self sabotage to make the depression purposely worse?
Does anyone else like feeling sad?

[jayyy-lmao]

Do you have a usual time of the day, week, month, year that you feel depressed?
How often do you cry? Where? When?

I'm just curious, because I cry a lot at night and the mornings, and I feel depressed during mornings and nights and afternoons. Mid day is really the only time I manage to feel a little happy, if at all.
:(

Does anyone else really like crying?
Does anyone else self sabotage to make the depression purposely worse?
Does anyone else like feeling sad?

Often, I feel depressed after school when I'm walking home, reflecting on things I could have done better that day, or dreading the consequences of an action. I don't cry often, but when I do it's mainly after school and at home, in my room or the kitchen. I honestly like crying, because I always feel better after, and I know it helped at least a bit. I don't really know about self sabotage, but sometimes when I'm happy I miss being sad. I just feel more like me when I'm sad. I'm used to being sad, that's the way things have been for a long time, and I feel more like me when I cry. Hope you feel better :)

[workingatperfect]

Summer is the worst time of the year for me. I don't have school work and stuff to distract me from the fact that I'm sitting home alone.

I don't really have a particular time of day though. Normally it's just whenever I think or hear something that gets me down again. A lot of times it's after my boyfriend goes to sleep. I feel more lonely then.

Yeah, sometimes I do like crying, just because I feel better afterwards. And I feel more comfortable being sad sometimes because it's kinda the norm for me. I know how to be sad haha, I'm not as familiar with being happy, but I'm getting there.

Oh and I cry almost every day I guess, sometimes more. But it's not always completely sad. Sometimes it's because my boyfriend says something sweet that gives me mixed emotions. Or it could just be watching a show. I'm a crybaby haha, anything at all could make me cry.

[Disasterology]

Usually every night in my room, pretty much cry myself to sleep. I think crying is good, but I do not like crying in front of people because they end up making it worse. I'm always sad, but never really show it. I'm known as someone who is always happy and upbeat (pssh suuure)

[Bethany]

I don't know if I technically have depression, but I'm gonna answer this anyways.

Late winter and midsummer and the worst times of year for me, hands down. mid-Jan to mid-March and mid-July to mid-August are by far the worst times of year for me. I attribute this to extreme temperatures and not having much to do during these times of year.

I kinda like crying, kinda not. Hard to explain.

There's a quote from 24 that says "Some people are more comfortable in hell" and I find that to definitely be true for me at least - I'm more comfortable in hell. My life was pretty shitty for a few years, and I still find that "shitty" is my natural state, haha, if that makes sense.

[screamtobeheard]

Mine doesn't seem to have patterns, that I've noticed. I just seem to get hit by random waves of it, some worse than others.

Does anyone else really like crying?
Does anyone else self sabotage to make the depression purposely worse?
Does anyone else like feeling sad?I like crying sometimes. Not always.
I do have a tendency to self sabotage to make it worse. I don't know if it's intentional or not. It's kind of strange, and to be honest, I feel like it invalidates me
It's not that I like feeling sad. It's more that it's comfortable for me.

[teen.jpg]

Everyday from Mon-Fri at the times of 7:45-3:45 ... also known as School.

I usually feel depressed because of self-esteem issues, my sexuality, being in the closet, and the mean things people can say to you.

I don't LIKE to cry, but seriously I would rather cry then cut. Just a tip for all you self-harmers out there. Tears can be wiped away, but cuts stay with you.

I'd hate to admit it, but I kind of over-think everything and make bad situations worse. I wish I was able to move past things, but to be honest, I can't.

[Faolan]

I feel depressed starting seventh period (my last class of the day), and whenever I'm alone after that time.

[Texas warrior]

I usaly cry in the shower, as for times of the day that make me depressed none come to mind.

[Baron]

Do take strong breathing slowly in fresh air,
Take multi-vitamin consistently, Discuss your problems with your family, Consume 2/3 cup of water....

[Sudds3]

I have seasonal depression. Im depressed every second of the school year. In august when we start i feel fine but that quickly goes away and by October im almost in my usual suicidal rage. By january i have usually attempt suicide because things get so bad and stress is so immense. Then by may things start to get better. Almost every night from the beginning of november to the end of march i could only fall asleep if i cried myself to sleep or took 3 times the recommended amount of sleeping pills. So things were bad.

It all started about 7th grade and it was only for about 3 months. Then in 8thgrade it was about 4 months but a lot worse and i attempted my first time. Then this year, freshman year, it lasted 7 months and i attempted 3 times, started cutting, saw a therapist and my school counselor, my counselor called my parents and told them everything, told a few friends i trusted and asked for help, and stopped cutting. This year was much much worse. Each month was 10 times worse than the last up until january-february, they were my worst months. My friend tried to crack me open and find out what was wrong but i couldnt ever tell him much until i finally confessed i was depressed (hey that rhymed :) ) and then he kept digging. I hate people knowing about my lifeand knowing the real me. He later compared me to Mercutio in Romeo and Juliet. He said i always had a mask on and no one could ever read me or how i was doing or what i was thinking. Sometimes i let my mask slip and others it couldnt even be forced off. It was a very accurate comparison. And R&J really helped me and i enjoyed it greatly. Anyway, i told him about a month ago that i wasnt going to talk about it anymore, i was sealing up for good now. Back to my mask.

This year was pretty bad because of the stress, many surgeries of family members, my basement flooded and now it has to be re done, and so many other factors. I still cant believe im alive right now. And im happy i am because this warm weather is so amazing and it is unexplainable how amazing summer looks and feels. This is what ive been holding out for for so long. Im just worried how next year might lay out. It can be better, or, as i fear, it may be much worse. But for now i will just forget everything and wait for my summer vacation