Fiction
May 4th, 2013, 04:19 AM
So I went shopping yesterday for summer clothes and I was trying on stuff like shorts and they really show me how much weight i've put on.
My things look huge and I can feel so much more fat around my tummy than I used to have, and I can't stand it. I've had thoughts about starving myself again for weeks now, but yesterday felt like the final straw. To make matters worse I came home and my sister told me i'm fat.
I used to be 6 stone 11 and now i'm 8 stone. That's a huge difference and i'd do anything to be that tiny again. My boyfriend told me he's going to be really annoyed at me if I start starving myself again but he doesn't understand. I know I shouldn't start starving myself again but I want to look in the mirror again and think fucking hell i'm tiny and not that i'm fat.
How do I change my thought patterns? I don't want to end up with my eating disorder again but unless I can figure out another way to make myself happy with my figure it's not going to happen. I've already decided how i'm going to starve myself today and I can't help myself.
My things look huge and I can feel so much more fat around my tummy than I used to have, and I can't stand it. I've had thoughts about starving myself again for weeks now, but yesterday felt like the final straw. To make matters worse I came home and my sister told me i'm fat.
I used to be 6 stone 11 and now i'm 8 stone. That's a huge difference and i'd do anything to be that tiny again. My boyfriend told me he's going to be really annoyed at me if I start starving myself again but he doesn't understand. I know I shouldn't start starving myself again but I want to look in the mirror again and think fucking hell i'm tiny and not that i'm fat.
How do I change my thought patterns? I don't want to end up with my eating disorder again but unless I can figure out another way to make myself happy with my figure it's not going to happen. I've already decided how i'm going to starve myself today and I can't help myself.