I was so sure I'm lesbian.. he messed it all up and I'm confused

[Silent Tears]

So, I uh... I was.. molested and it turned me lesbian. Took me a while to accept that's the reason why. Honestly, I could never trust a guyafter what happened to me. I just can't. I was so sure I wanted to be with a girl.

I daydream all the time. Lately, I've been daydreaming of me liking a guy and it hurting so badly. Because, I just can't trust men that way. But, I just... I block out any straight thoughts that come to mind. Any attraction to guys, I try to block out. I don't want to be anything but lesbian. I can't. Not after what happened. And, I can't let the thoughts in, either. I just can't.

I feel like if that never happened I wouldn't be lesbian. Maybe bi.. but now it's so confusing. I wish it never happened. I'm so lost, and I don't know what's going on or who I am, who I'm supposed to be... If I can let myself trust again. </3

[Hunter_Steel]

This I can see is obviously hard for you. But you need to try and trust again, not all guys are the like the one that molested you. I know, coz I find that act of forcing a girl into sex and raping her as utterly disgusting. No girl deserves the mental abuse of being raped or molested.

Perhaps you are bi and just seem to be denying yourself the other part of you that longs for male companionship. It will be hard to trust again, but once you build up that wall of trust, you'll be alot happier again. :)

It will hurt, but you need to start letting those feelings in, instead of just closing them off. Because: What if your soul mate turns out to be a guy? You never know, but still. Denying yourself that is somewhat part of the reason your feeling down in the dumps and everything? Correct me if I am wrong on this.

Anyways, back to the moral, you need to open your mind up to those thoughts. You'll feel a lot better once you learn to trust again, and trust me, not all guys are molesters. You just happened to run into one of us that can be called scum of the Earth.

~Hunter

[mandyluvgirl]

i know whatyour going through i was rape at 12 years old i cant hardly stand guys it hard to get over it took a wile before i could even talk to a boy. I feel so bad for you

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This is a common thing i have a friend who is lesbian but only because she is petrified of men...... it comes down to the fact that sometimes you cant control emotions if your attracted to men then you cant help it...... you will have to overcome this event you can seek professional help......or sometimes you just have to except that no all people are like the people that hurt you... i know its hard to think that maybe all men aren't scum that deserve a torture filled death but its true some guys are amazing and would do anything to protect women from these horrendous things....