Crying

[Bath]

I'm crying for so many people who are alive and dead, I feel alive and dead, this is just another venting that I do on here a lot. I don't expect anyone to care but this forum has been here since Nov '10 so I feel better on here than tumblr or a journal that nobody will pick up or anything else. I cried in the shower. I cried on the couch, I started thinking about how I'm breaking somebody's heart and then I started thinking of Sue Klebold, Dylan's mother. I started daydreaming and I wonder how she feels today. I started thinking about everybody I love who's dead or gone. It makes me want to die, makes me want to crawl into a corner and die. I'm not afraid to die, I hate life, I hate emotion and I don't care if I'd regret it. I wouldn't regret anything. but there's something so human inside me that wants to be alive for the sake of it. I'm crying about Eric and Dylan and I'm crying about my uncle. They all took their own lives. I wish I had that impulse, I wish I would have bled a little more that one time. I wish.

I'm down and sad and scared, I keep thinking I won't feel this way again and I do and I always will so what the hell, goddamn.

Don't even know what this says anymore I'm just so sad

[Thanatos]

We've all been there at some point, the important thing is not to dwell on it and let it run your life. It is important to remember those who have passed and learn from them, but don't get stuck in mourning. Think of all the people you love who are still here, think of the future and all the possibilities in the world. There is too much good in this world to always be sad, and not enough time in life to spend some stuck in depression. Smiles are contagious!

By the way, love your avatar, lost my cherry earlier this year when my college put on a production, one of my best friends played Dr. Frankenfurter. Weirdest lap dance I have ever received.

[CountryGuy]

Once upon a time, I was like that. I was always sad and depressed. I was mad at the world and not afraid to show it. But I found people to talk to to better vent my feelings and figure stuff out. If you ever need to talk, just shoot me a message. I'll help you the best I can :D

[Bath]

Adding to this because I don't want to make a new thread.

a friend from high school killed herself yesterday.

my ex is threatening to hurt himself.

the world is ugly as fuck

[Texas warrior]

This is a song that I think might help, I lesson to it when I am really down.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zV8vuMD3a9c