Alone

[DarkAngelLover]

Hey everyone. I am really new to this sight, so I hope i am doing this right.
I am a self harmer, been doing it for almost four years. I just do not know what to do anymore. I have been thrown so much. I cant take anymore. Its so hard. From people calling me names, to people hating me for being who i am. My parents fight too, and my dad is a drunk. I have two siblings. They are cool. My best friend used to be a self harmer, but she got through it, kicked the habit. Does anyone have any advice on how to do that? I will take anything anyone has to offer. It would really be great. I am just so tired of feeling like this.. I cant tell my parents either.. They found out a month ago and said if i did not stop they would send me away. So i stopped cutting my arms, and moved to a new spot.

[tundravortex]

U can always come out to one of us and tell us everything,maybe that will help

[xXoblivionXx]

It's a hard thing to just stop doing. I haven't cut for a really long time but I still get the urges. One thing that I do is try to distract myself wether it be sitting in my closet and listening to music (i know, sounds weird but it calms me down) or go out for a run/walk.

As for your parents finding out I know exactly what you mean, when my parents found out they got super pissed, I'm pretty sure they're still in denial (they thought i was being hazed) but they don't really bring it up as long as they know I've stopped.

Anyway, I'm always here if you want to talk. Sometimes having a friend who understands what you are going through is the best way to help get through a tough time.

[habitualrelapser]

Its incredibly hard to stop, as you well know, it will take time and it will be an every day struggle. Some nights, like for me tonight, it can be damn near impossible thing not to cut. My parents threatened me with that too but it never happened. I did do a stint in a phych ward thing but it was because I had a break down not because they sent me. I'm not sure how serious your parents are but I wouldn't count on it happening. And you know what your helping your self kick the habit by coming on here. This is the first step of many. I wish I found this site earlier on, maybe I wouldn't be cutting still. keep with it. As long as you know this isn't right then you'll get through it.