things are going down hill

[went2far]

so im 16 and i have acute anxiety disorder which i take fluoxetine for. i dropped out of school about 3 years ago and for 2 years i basically lived in my room and was skinny and pale. then i got a home teacher who came an hour a day for 4 days a week but i had to drop that coz i started to see no point in life. but i started to think about what ill do in collage (im in the uk) and now ive got a place to do childcare. problem is i have no friends noone to talk to nothing to do nowhere to go and i wont have any of this till september. each day is takeing forever as if im looking at a clock just waiting. im getting really really depressed and i dont want to go back to what it was like a while ago. i just have suicidal thoughts all the time i see building thinking i could just jump off that and it would all be over. i do see someone about all this but i dont think she understands how alone i am and how badly its effecting me. i dont have friends and i never have done all i used to when i was at school was stand in a crowed to look like i had friends. i feel like throwing up if i go out the house now

[Ellie_J]

Anxiety and depression can both be very difficult to cope with; often it really is a matter of taking things one day at a time. You just have to keep telling reminding yourself that it can only get better from here on out. Perhaps try investing some time in a new hobby or an interest to help take your mind off things. Also, I know making new friends might feel a bit daunting at the moment, but if you take it little by little you'll get there. Try getting out a bit more, maybe join a sport or a club or a community organisation, they are all great ways to meet people with mutual interests.