screamtobeheard
April 27th, 2013, 10:55 PM
My boyfriend and I go to the same college. We became extremely close last semester, though we were both dating other people originally. Eventually, we broke up and (to no one's surprise) got together. Since then, I've been so much better. I struggle with depression, self harm, and EDNOS, but I'd been recovering. Since we've been together, I've become so much healthier. I eat more and better, sleep, hurt myself less, and I have a reason to live again. When I'm away from him, I have a hard time sleeping, and I miss him whenever we're not together. It's bearable, but I've never noticed someone's absence or presence in my life so much before.
What's interesting about this, to me at least, is that I've been in relationships before, but I always spent a ton of time worrying about when I was going to have to break up with them. This time, I don't think about that. I think about what my life will be like in the future with him, and how much it will hurt if he ever leaves me. I think about how much he's helped me and where I'd be if I didn't have him, and ways to explain to him how much I love him.
I don't know if this is how everyone feels about love or if I'm just weird. Sorry about that rant. It's over now. (:
What's interesting about this, to me at least, is that I've been in relationships before, but I always spent a ton of time worrying about when I was going to have to break up with them. This time, I don't think about that. I think about what my life will be like in the future with him, and how much it will hurt if he ever leaves me. I think about how much he's helped me and where I'd be if I didn't have him, and ways to explain to him how much I love him.
I don't know if this is how everyone feels about love or if I'm just weird. Sorry about that rant. It's over now. (: